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[Several hours after vanishing into the mist of Lumina Cloth:]
I'm here.
Heading to the infirmary with Levi.
Where are you?
I'm here.
Heading to the infirmary with Levi.
Where are you?
( !! )
I'm still in Lumina Cloth. I was still trying to get in.
( For several hours? Yeah. The snow thawed, so he figured things might have resolved... but he wasn't going to give up trying to get into the mists until he knew Barrett was safe and the danger had passed. )
Are you hurt? I can meet you there if you're already in Net Slum.
I'm still in Lumina Cloth. I was still trying to get in.
( For several hours? Yeah. The snow thawed, so he figured things might have resolved... but he wasn't going to give up trying to get into the mists until he knew Barrett was safe and the danger had passed. )
Are you hurt? I can meet you there if you're already in Net Slum.
Yeah. Hard to breathe. My HP is fine. But it feels like my ribs are broken.
We're in Net Slum. Gated here right away.
Before you come here, I need to ask you something.
We're in Net Slum. Gated here right away.
Before you come here, I need to ask you something.
Edited 2023-11-23 05:16 (UTC)
( He's already on the move to the Gate, and much faster when he reads that - broken ribs??? Hello ???
Regardless, it'll take awhile for him to get there due to navigational issues. )
What?
Regardless, it'll take awhile for him to get there due to navigational issues. )
What?
[A significant pause.]
Something happened with Levi. I think it might have been Cubia.
Don't touch him, and don't question him about it until I have a chance to talk to him. Okay?
I don't think he's dangerous right now. But something changed, and he's really shaken up.
Something happened with Levi. I think it might have been Cubia.
Don't touch him, and don't question him about it until I have a chance to talk to him. Okay?
I don't think he's dangerous right now. But something changed, and he's really shaken up.
He started screaming in the middle of the fight, and then turned around and started attacking us. He's got a mark on his head that wasn't there before. It's not one I recognize.
It stopped right away when someone Data Drained him with one of the bracelets. But the mark is still there.
Fidchell said he had nothing to do with it. I think I believe it. He looked just as surprised as the rest of us.
It stopped right away when someone Data Drained him with one of the bracelets. But the mark is still there.
Fidchell said he had nothing to do with it. I think I believe it. He looked just as surprised as the rest of us.
( ... )
0koto also had a mark on him, before any of us realized some of us were being made into Phases.
( His mark was as Cubia's, and Levi's is unknown - but that doesn't matter to the point: he don't trust like that. )
Do you trust him, or is it just that you want to trust him?
0koto also had a mark on him, before any of us realized some of us were being made into Phases.
( His mark was as Cubia's, and Levi's is unknown - but that doesn't matter to the point: he don't trust like that. )
Do you trust him, or is it just that you want to trust him?
Edited 2023-11-23 06:24 (UTC)
He's not a Phase. We already went through all eight.
I trust him, Morgan. Whatever happened, it wasn't him. I know it wasn't. And I can stop him if it happens again.
Just leave him alone until I talk to him. Please. This is important to me.
I trust him, Morgan. Whatever happened, it wasn't him. I know it wasn't. And I can stop him if it happens again.
Just leave him alone until I talk to him. Please. This is important to me.
( The last time he trusted Barrett's judgment on whether Cubia-related happenings were safe, it kind of fucked Barrett over (Mithrun takes responsibility for his own pursuit of Cubia, even if it was spurred by Barrett's choices). So what Barrett says doesn't reassure him, nor does the logic seem sound. )
The Phases aren't the only things out there.
( To be wary of, he means. Levi can still be a danger without being a Phase. Despite Mithrun's phrasing, it takes a lot of effort for him to construct his sentence as such - it is the most delicate way he could bear to put it. Unfortunately, it's not all that delicate still.
That message hangs there in isolation for a short time as he formulates the next one (he probably should've sent them together, but that's a little beyond him in terms of thinking ahead, emotionally). )
I don't want something to happen to you again. Cubia knows you're weak to your family.
The Phases aren't the only things out there.
( To be wary of, he means. Levi can still be a danger without being a Phase. Despite Mithrun's phrasing, it takes a lot of effort for him to construct his sentence as such - it is the most delicate way he could bear to put it. Unfortunately, it's not all that delicate still.
That message hangs there in isolation for a short time as he formulates the next one (he probably should've sent them together, but that's a little beyond him in terms of thinking ahead, emotionally). )
I don't want something to happen to you again. Cubia knows you're weak to your family.
Besides Cubia?
Cubia's always known from the start, and that's my fault. That's why if something needs to happen with Levi, I'll do it myself.
Right now, he's himself again. He was horrified when the Data Drain ended, and I'm not going to treat him like a monster just because Cubia took control of him. I'm going to try to get some answers from him.
I'm telling you this because I want to be honest with you, Morgan. I know you don't trust anything to do with Cubia. But please at least trust me.
Cubia's always known from the start, and that's my fault. That's why if something needs to happen with Levi, I'll do it myself.
Right now, he's himself again. He was horrified when the Data Drain ended, and I'm not going to treat him like a monster just because Cubia took control of him. I'm going to try to get some answers from him.
I'm telling you this because I want to be honest with you, Morgan. I know you don't trust anything to do with Cubia. But please at least trust me.
( Unlike Mithrun's decisive pace up until now, this message takes some time to arrive. )
All I've done is trust you.
All I've done is trust you.
[He lets the silent settle, even after Morgan's response sends. Part of him knows that that's only a tense truth. Morgan has had to go through a lot of falsehoods to get here, and Barrett of all people doesn't deserve to ask for trust.]
I know. I know I keep breaking it.
I have to try. I love Levi too much to just not take a chance before it's too late.
I know. I know I keep breaking it.
I have to try. I love Levi too much to just not take a chance before it's too late.
Edited (U know what I'm changing that) 2023-11-23 15:31 (UTC)
( ...
... Ugh... )
Just be careful.
I like this part of you, too. The part that cares so much. But if I find out you're not around anymore, I
( He types that and he doesn't know how to complete it. He stares at it for awhile, and then... just leaves it. It conveys enough, he thinks. He hopes, at least. )
Just don't let yourself get hurt out of love.
... Ugh... )
Just be careful.
I like this part of you, too. The part that cares so much. But if I find out you're not around anymore, I
( He types that and he doesn't know how to complete it. He stares at it for awhile, and then... just leaves it. It conveys enough, he thinks. He hopes, at least. )
Just don't let yourself get hurt out of love.
It might have been a holdover from when Phases were, potentially, meant to be a normal game mechanic, and not what they are now.
Did you want me to make something for you?
Did you want me to make something for you?
I'm guessing you want something made if Skeith's drop, then.
I can do it. I'll follow one of the standard recipes. Do you have any preferences?
I can do it. I'll follow one of the standard recipes. Do you have any preferences?
( *of Sketih's drop... autocorrect... )
So, sushi? Lumina Cloth Lampposts are a valid cooking ingredient in this game, so I'm sure weapon shards will function just as edibly.
( Is there a sushi recipe...? Eh. It's just rice and raw fish. He can freeball it if there isn't. How hard can it be to make...
Sorry in advance to all about any potential Fugu 2.0 incidents-- )
Were you close to Hien?
( He remembers the whole bit about Hien saving him, but. )
So, sushi? Lumina Cloth Lampposts are a valid cooking ingredient in this game, so I'm sure weapon shards will function just as edibly.
( Is there a sushi recipe...? Eh. It's just rice and raw fish. He can freeball it if there isn't. How hard can it be to make...
Sorry in advance to all about any potential Fugu 2.0 incidents-- )
Were you close to Hien?
( He remembers the whole bit about Hien saving him, but. )
(( *Skeith
prays for your autocorrect tho ))
Really, lamps...? but sushi sounds good. I'm just picky about how my fish is cooked.
-
No, the opposite. Because of how I felt about him, I thought it was better to keep my distance. I didn't want to disrespect what he did for me, or that people had their own feelings about him. Swallow couldn't stand him.
Those kinds of feelings I had... are meant to fade away without anyone knowing they ever existed. The man I met that day, who healed me from death when everyone says he never acts like a healer... must've never existed, either.
[ Macha if you're in there, eat your heart out. ]
prays for your autocorrect tho ))
Really, lamps...? but sushi sounds good. I'm just picky about how my fish is cooked.
-
No, the opposite. Because of how I felt about him, I thought it was better to keep my distance. I didn't want to disrespect what he did for me, or that people had their own feelings about him. Swallow couldn't stand him.
Those kinds of feelings I had... are meant to fade away without anyone knowing they ever existed. The man I met that day, who healed me from death when everyone says he never acts like a healer... must've never existed, either.
[ Macha if you're in there, eat your heart out. ]
Edited (i hate wording out feelings but i stg i'm done EXCEPT FOR THE SUSHI) 2023-11-24 13:09 (UTC)
( The echoe of Macha is so mad Mithrun assumed Furin was straight and asked him about Shoka instead of Hien...
Functionally, Mithrun considers it better that Furin didn't pursue his feelings, because he knows Hien and Matoba had a weird thing. He thinks they both had bad taste. However, )
Letting those feelings fester is just going to destroy you.
( It's too late now to confess and get it over with, but just based on how Furin wrote that, how he's dealing with unrequited love and grief doesn't sound super healthy. Weirdly, he knows now what it's like to have a healthy perspective on unrequited love and grief, thanks to the data Macha collected; Furin doesn't fall into that category. He sounds exactly like the ugly sort of feeling Macha wanted to collect instead. )
Functionally, Mithrun considers it better that Furin didn't pursue his feelings, because he knows Hien and Matoba had a weird thing. He thinks they both had bad taste. However, )
Letting those feelings fester is just going to destroy you.
( It's too late now to confess and get it over with, but just based on how Furin wrote that, how he's dealing with unrequited love and grief doesn't sound super healthy. Weirdly, he knows now what it's like to have a healthy perspective on unrequited love and grief, thanks to the data Macha collected; Furin doesn't fall into that category. He sounds exactly like the ugly sort of feeling Macha wanted to collect instead. )
[ There there Macha. Furin was just very good at hiding the part of him the world would judge him for while he was open about how much Shoka meant to him. Bitter Choco Decoration.mp3 all up in this bitch, he would rather be the kind of guy who pleases everyone with an inoffensive personality and tastes.
Nope. This is pretty garbage taste. He's aware. To the point the guilt and fear of being rejected at large ate away at his heart. ]
I know. Thank you for your warning, even if it might be too late.
I couldn't let go my feelings for Hien go in time for that fight with Skeith. I thought that surely afterwards I could do it, like there'd be a tidy conclusion similar to the other Phases. But something from that fight, or perhaps all of it from start to finish, might have destroyed me.
[ He doesn't regret fighting Skeith still, even if those feelings were definitely twisted as well. He saved Mithrun's life (OK). He had fun fighting (hm). He learned what an impossible love he had (ugh).
It's a relief to tell someone and get a blunt answer. Sorry about making Mithrun have to reference data collected by Macha though. ]
Nope. This is pretty garbage taste. He's aware. To the point the guilt and fear of being rejected at large ate away at his heart. ]
I know. Thank you for your warning, even if it might be too late.
I couldn't let go my feelings for Hien go in time for that fight with Skeith. I thought that surely afterwards I could do it, like there'd be a tidy conclusion similar to the other Phases. But something from that fight, or perhaps all of it from start to finish, might have destroyed me.
[ He doesn't regret fighting Skeith still, even if those feelings were definitely twisted as well. He saved Mithrun's life (OK). He had fun fighting (hm). He learned what an impossible love he had (ugh).
It's a relief to tell someone and get a blunt answer. Sorry about making Mithrun have to reference data collected by Macha though. ]
Edited (Cutting it up so it's easier to respond! Yandere food talk later. ) 2023-11-25 10:05 (UTC)
( Honestly, might as well put that data to good use. While Mithrun doesn't think fondly of his time without free will, he isn't bitter about it in isolation; it's only pragmatic to employ what he's learned somehow, should it be necessary. )
Were you destroyed, or did you start to unravel?
I can't tell you. I know heartbreak and grief, but those are my own. You might be different than me.
But if it's something that's only just begun, and hasn't yet complete...
I think it's fine, if you want to let it overtake you. It's your life.
But when you go, you take others with you, one way or another. Swallow, for one. Make sure you're content with that before you let go.
Were you destroyed, or did you start to unravel?
I can't tell you. I know heartbreak and grief, but those are my own. You might be different than me.
But if it's something that's only just begun, and hasn't yet complete...
I think it's fine, if you want to let it overtake you. It's your life.
But when you go, you take others with you, one way or another. Swallow, for one. Make sure you're content with that before you let go.
[ Destroyed or unraveling at the edges... He can't answer that. The former seemed safer to assume on the off chance he was underestimated the damage done to his psyche, but if there was ]
I understand, and it's appreciated that you'll let me live my life.
I want to prioritize the safety of everyone.
If I put my grief or feelings for Hien in any way that endangers anyone, especially Swallow, take me out however you see fit. Even tell someone else to do it if you have to. That is my wish while I'm still myself.
[ Lily or Cubia, who has manipulated enough people... Yeah. ]
Looking at the Wepon Debris... I don't know what to make of it. I don't think I want to keep it like some memento. Were gonna leave this place. But if it's food to consume, then it becomes useful. We're about to fight Cubia, so any bit helps.
[ If Mithrun asks for how Fuurin would actually feel about eating it? Well. ]
I understand, and it's appreciated that you'll let me live my life.
I want to prioritize the safety of everyone.
If I put my grief or feelings for Hien in any way that endangers anyone, especially Swallow, take me out however you see fit. Even tell someone else to do it if you have to. That is my wish while I'm still myself.
[ Lily or Cubia, who has manipulated enough people... Yeah. ]
Looking at the Wepon Debris... I don't know what to make of it. I don't think I want to keep it like some memento. Were gonna leave this place. But if it's food to consume, then it becomes useful. We're about to fight Cubia, so any bit helps.
[ If Mithrun asks for how Fuurin would actually feel about eating it? Well. ]
Edited 2023-11-26 00:31 (UTC)
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