[ There there Macha. Furin was just very good at hiding the part of him the world would judge him for while he was open about how much Shoka meant to him. Bitter Choco Decoration.mp3 all up in this bitch, he would rather be the kind of guy who pleases everyone with an inoffensive personality and tastes.
Nope. This is pretty garbage taste. He's aware. To the point the guilt and fear of being rejected at large ate away at his heart. ]
I know. Thank you for your warning, even if it might be too late.
I couldn't let go my feelings for Hien go in time for that fight with Skeith. I thought that surely afterwards I could do it, like there'd be a tidy conclusion similar to the other Phases. But something from that fight, or perhaps all of it from start to finish, might have destroyed me.
[ He doesn't regret fighting Skeith still, even if those feelings were definitely twisted as well. He saved Mithrun's life (OK). He had fun fighting (hm). He learned what an impossible love he had (ugh).
It's a relief to tell someone and get a blunt answer. Sorry about making Mithrun have to reference data collected by Macha though. ]
Edited (Cutting it up so it's easier to respond! Yandere food talk later. ) 2023-11-25 10:05 (UTC)
( Honestly, might as well put that data to good use. While Mithrun doesn't think fondly of his time without free will, he isn't bitter about it in isolation; it's only pragmatic to employ what he's learned somehow, should it be necessary. )
Were you destroyed, or did you start to unravel?
I can't tell you. I know heartbreak and grief, but those are my own. You might be different than me.
But if it's something that's only just begun, and hasn't yet complete...
I think it's fine, if you want to let it overtake you. It's your life.
But when you go, you take others with you, one way or another. Swallow, for one. Make sure you're content with that before you let go.
[ Destroyed or unraveling at the edges... He can't answer that. The former seemed safer to assume on the off chance he was underestimated the damage done to his psyche, but if there was ]
I understand, and it's appreciated that you'll let me live my life.
I want to prioritize the safety of everyone.
If I put my grief or feelings for Hien in any way that endangers anyone, especially Swallow, take me out however you see fit. Even tell someone else to do it if you have to. That is my wish while I'm still myself.
[ Lily or Cubia, who has manipulated enough people... Yeah. ]
Looking at the Wepon Debris... I don't know what to make of it. I don't think I want to keep it like some memento. Were gonna leave this place. But if it's food to consume, then it becomes useful. We're about to fight Cubia, so any bit helps.
[ If Mithrun asks for how Fuurin would actually feel about eating it? Well. ]
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Nope. This is pretty garbage taste. He's aware. To the point the guilt and fear of being rejected at large ate away at his heart. ]
I know. Thank you for your warning, even if it might be too late.
I couldn't let go my feelings for Hien go in time for that fight with Skeith. I thought that surely afterwards I could do it, like there'd be a tidy conclusion similar to the other Phases. But something from that fight, or perhaps all of it from start to finish, might have destroyed me.
[ He doesn't regret fighting Skeith still, even if those feelings were definitely twisted as well. He saved Mithrun's life (OK). He had fun fighting (hm). He learned what an impossible love he had (ugh).
It's a relief to tell someone and get a blunt answer. Sorry about making Mithrun have to reference data collected by Macha though. ]
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Were you destroyed, or did you start to unravel?
I can't tell you. I know heartbreak and grief, but those are my own. You might be different than me.
But if it's something that's only just begun, and hasn't yet complete...
I think it's fine, if you want to let it overtake you. It's your life.
But when you go, you take others with you, one way or another. Swallow, for one. Make sure you're content with that before you let go.
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I understand, and it's appreciated that you'll let me live my life.
I want to prioritize the safety of everyone.
If I put my grief or feelings for Hien in any way that endangers anyone, especially Swallow, take me out however you see fit. Even tell someone else to do it if you have to. That is my wish while I'm still myself.
[ Lily or Cubia, who has manipulated enough people... Yeah. ]
Looking at the Wepon Debris... I don't know what to make of it. I don't think I want to keep it like some memento. Were gonna leave this place. But if it's food to consume, then it becomes useful. We're about to fight Cubia, so any bit helps.
[ If Mithrun asks for how Fuurin would actually feel about eating it? Well. ]