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[tinged]

[ hani knows it'll be okay as long as they stay. that's the promise, after all. getting hurt was never brought up. ]

That's fine. We don't always have to understand each other.

Don't worry about me. But you can worry about Justy-kun. He would appreciate that, even if he says he's OK.

[ it might even be better if bear never worried about them, because worrying means caring for someone. ]

And we will all worry about Morgan-kun, Mithrun-kun together.

[gluttoning]

of course im worried about you hani

we're friends

and you and tylor both love him a lot

[tinged]

Thank you.

I’m glad that we are.

We do. I do.

[ each reply seems automatic and hani has never been this much of a robot. even when they didn’t care.

and they do care about bear, so they.

they shouldn’t. be like this. ]

I don’t want to give you another thing to worry about, because I’m worried about you, too. I’m sorry.

[gluttoning]

don't apologize for something like that

i get it




i feel i owe morgan enough to keep the people who loved him safe

but i cant force protection on anyone

so just be careful whatever you decide to do

okay?

[tinged]

OK.

But why do you think you owe him?

[gluttoning]

there were things he understood better than other people

but i had a chance to protect him better and i didnt do it

[His feelings, the blossoms that barely got to open and see the sun... they don't belong here. He doesn't want to rip them out just yet.]

[tinged]

[ but understanding isn't owed, it's given. well... ]

About you?




Don't put yourself down. He wouldn't like that.

[gluttoning]

sort of. about himself more than me

[He stays silent on the rest.]

[tinged]

I see.

I think you're right. But I also think there were parts he couldn't see.

But every part of him is so lovely. Every single part.

[gluttoning]

i wish he could see it that way

i don't think it was ever possible for him though

[tinged]

We see it for him, and he can just be himself.

[gluttoning]

he wasnt happy with himself

and we cant carry his happiness for him

[tinged]

You're right, we can't carry it for him. But we can help him carry it, if it gets too heavy.

Happiness can hurt.

[gluttoning]

hurt?

[tinged]

Yes. You don’t think so?

Just sometimes.

[gluttoning]

i dont know

ive never thought of it like that

does it hurt for you hani

[tinged]

Just sometimes.

That’s how I know it’s real. Before I was happy, but I didn’t feel anything.

How do you think of it, then?

[gluttoning]

you didn't used to feel??

i dont usually think about it

but i think

["I like it too. Being with you."]

it feels warm

like sunshine

[tinged]

It does that, too. It does that the most.

Happiness is really amazing. And the people who can make us happy are even more so.

[gluttoning]

[A long, long pause. He wishes Morgan had felt happy. He deeply wishes Morgan has more chances to be happy.

But he has a feeling that Hani has made up their mind on Morgan's current state. So he keeps that thought to himself.

It aches in the hollowness.]

what do you want to do then

for morgan or the glitches

[tinged]

Morgan. I can hear it - the way you say his name. Please don’t ever stop.

[ as for the rest: ]

When I know the details, I’ll tell you. If you’d like.

But you don’t have to.

[gluttoning]

[We're not even talking, he thinks. What are you talking about, Hani, he thinks.]

The way I say his name?

...If you learn anything. I'd like to know.

But please be careful, Hani. We can't help anyone if we get into trouble, too.

[tinged]

Yes. I can hear it. The way you love him.

[ so don’t stop. ]

I’ll do my best, so I can take care of Justy-kun, and you, and everyone important to me.

I forgot I was supposed to stick to no caps rip in pieces in tired

[gluttoning]

[Love?




...

He feels guilt swell. He doesn't want to talk about this. He wants to keep that blossom buried, he doesn't want to rip it from its roots.]

no. you love him, hani. tylor loves him

[Don't feel like this for anyone else.

I like the way my name sounds on your lips.]

i liked being with him. but we were just friends. i just wanted him to be safe and happy

i want to think he had a place for love somewhere, with whoever he wanted. i think it was always with you two though.

[not him. he can feel the grip bury. he doesn't want its color to fade. it didn't have any time to show itself. but this wasn't the place.



he's always been bad at lying.]

im sorry if it sounded different

i cared [so much. but let it bury. let it bury. let hani be the storm and justy be the river. let him be the ground that only let them carve a path.]

but not like that

[let him snuff it out and the hurt along with it.]

[tinged]

That would be nice, but no. He only wants one.

Only one, not both.

[ even thought he said he loved them - did he? does he? this is why happiness hurts.

and for all of bear’s words when he can be the one, the only one.

hani and justy will never be less than two. ]

Perhaps you don’t see it. Or perhaps I’m wrong.

But that would be nice, too, if it was you.