I feel like I'm running out of people to talk to. I feel like this has happened to me before.
( After the accident... where everyone he knew stopped talking to him... lol... But, unfortunately, he doesn't remember it concretely; only the heart beats with familiarity, as the memories' echoes carved light marks in. )
( But Oria is also pedantic, so he guesses that's something else they have in common. )
Is that how he wakes you up? Because... it might work for you, but it doesn't work for me. ( Wow, nuance. He learned it from Barrett. ) You're just lucky the person who knows how to talk to you isn't going anywhere.
I'll talk to him later. I don't think he wants to talk to me now.
( Sinclair can advise otherwise for sure, but based on Oria's final message... He seemed pretty steamed to Mithrun.
Honestly, though... some part of him tells him he should be doing something else for his time. It's hard to balance his needs here. They ask for equal priority, but one needs to come before the other, somehow. )
( THIS IS REALLY HARD FOR HIM TO FORMULATE, both in phrase and in parsing his feelings to even begin to word it... So it takes him awhile to phrase it. )
I wish I could still talk to Barrett the same way as we did before.
( He's jealous Sinclair has Oria to center him and understand what he means when he tries to say something, and Mithrun had that for a bit but... well. Barrett is sure Going Somewhere ! and Oria (hopefully) (looks at Haki) is not.
But, Sinclair going off kind of tells him he's probably not going to find that type of communication or a place to confide in with anyone else. And maybe it's because of the type of relationships he's fostered with Sinclair, with other people. He didn't necessarily earn his right to have a confidante.
This, too, is a fascinating mismatched connection. )
i talk to oria about a lot of things but not everything. not because he wont try to understand but because it would hurt both of us if i made him carry everything.
he's not the only one i care about and he's not the only one i confide in. im sure there are things he can only tell other people too. maybe because they're older. or he wants a different perspective
you have so many people reaching out.
I cant talk to you the way you talk to Barrett because we're different people. but i can listen. i want you to hold on
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you would have value regardless
but i miss the Mithrun I know. I can't replace those memories so easily.
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A pause. )
Do you want me to stop talking to you?
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No. I want you to keep talking to me.
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Really?
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Okay. Thank you.
I feel like I'm running out of people to talk to. I feel like this has happened to me before.
( After the accident... where everyone he knew stopped talking to him... lol... But, unfortunately, he doesn't remember it concretely; only the heart beats with familiarity, as the memories' echoes carved light marks in. )
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let me correct that to : most people
oria wanted to give everyone a wake up call
to give you a wake up call
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But it doesn't sound like you agree.
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He can't afford to
You know this
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( But Oria is also pedantic, so he guesses that's something else they have in common. )
Is that how he wakes you up? Because... it might work for you, but it doesn't work for me. ( Wow, nuance. He learned it from Barrett. ) You're just lucky the person who knows how to talk to you isn't going anywhere.
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If you're angry with Oria speak with him directly
he doesn't speak to me like that because we talk a lot
and you're being unfair
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( Sinclair can advise otherwise for sure, but based on Oria's final message... He seemed pretty steamed to Mithrun.
Honestly, though... some part of him tells him he should be doing something else for his time. It's hard to balance his needs here. They ask for equal priority, but one needs to come before the other, somehow. )
Unfair how?
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if you can't remember what we've talked about, i guess it would be wrong for me to feel hurt
but you're blaming me for having someone
we worked on it. everything was us working together
you have so many people who keep reaching out
no relationship comes without communication
none of this comes easy
understanding is the hard part sometimes
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Some time passes. )
I'm not blaming you for having someone.
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I wish I could still talk to Barrett the same way as we did before.
( He's jealous Sinclair has Oria to center him and understand what he means when he tries to say something, and Mithrun had that for a bit but... well. Barrett is sure Going Somewhere ! and Oria (hopefully) (looks at Haki) is not.
But, Sinclair going off kind of tells him he's probably not going to find that type of communication or a place to confide in with anyone else. And maybe it's because of the type of relationships he's fostered with Sinclair, with other people. He didn't necessarily earn his right to have a confidante.
This, too, is a fascinating mismatched connection. )
I'll head out for a bit. See you.
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i talk to oria about a lot of things but not everything. not because he wont try to understand but because it would hurt both of us if i made him carry everything.
he's not the only one i care about and he's not the only one i confide in. im sure there are things he can only tell other people too. maybe because they're older. or he wants a different perspective
you have so many people reaching out.
I cant talk to you the way you talk to Barrett because we're different people. but i can listen. i want you to hold on
im here
when you feel like talking
and when you feel like listening
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