( THIS IS REALLY HARD FOR HIM TO FORMULATE, both in phrase and in parsing his feelings to even begin to word it... So it takes him awhile to phrase it. )
I wish I could still talk to Barrett the same way as we did before.
( He's jealous Sinclair has Oria to center him and understand what he means when he tries to say something, and Mithrun had that for a bit but... well. Barrett is sure Going Somewhere ! and Oria (hopefully) (looks at Haki) is not.
But, Sinclair going off kind of tells him he's probably not going to find that type of communication or a place to confide in with anyone else. And maybe it's because of the type of relationships he's fostered with Sinclair, with other people. He didn't necessarily earn his right to have a confidante.
This, too, is a fascinating mismatched connection. )
i talk to oria about a lot of things but not everything. not because he wont try to understand but because it would hurt both of us if i made him carry everything.
he's not the only one i care about and he's not the only one i confide in. im sure there are things he can only tell other people too. maybe because they're older. or he wants a different perspective
you have so many people reaching out.
I cant talk to you the way you talk to Barrett because we're different people. but i can listen. i want you to hold on
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Some time passes. )
I'm not blaming you for having someone.
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I wish I could still talk to Barrett the same way as we did before.
( He's jealous Sinclair has Oria to center him and understand what he means when he tries to say something, and Mithrun had that for a bit but... well. Barrett is sure Going Somewhere ! and Oria (hopefully) (looks at Haki) is not.
But, Sinclair going off kind of tells him he's probably not going to find that type of communication or a place to confide in with anyone else. And maybe it's because of the type of relationships he's fostered with Sinclair, with other people. He didn't necessarily earn his right to have a confidante.
This, too, is a fascinating mismatched connection. )
I'll head out for a bit. See you.
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you're being unfair again
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i talk to oria about a lot of things but not everything. not because he wont try to understand but because it would hurt both of us if i made him carry everything.
he's not the only one i care about and he's not the only one i confide in. im sure there are things he can only tell other people too. maybe because they're older. or he wants a different perspective
you have so many people reaching out.
I cant talk to you the way you talk to Barrett because we're different people. but i can listen. i want you to hold on
im here
when you feel like talking
and when you feel like listening
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