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[gluttoning]

It won't hurt me anymore. I'm going to make it work.

[There is no problem. He doesn't have a problem. Like his exercise. Like his food consumption. He's under control. He can manage some level of pain, of misery, of self destruction. So long as he shoves a lid over the boiling pot before it explodes. He's under control, he can keep it under control.]

I just need to make sure it doesn't hurt anyone else. I won't let it.

[insinning]

We don't have a say in these things, you know. They're not designed to let us...you should look at your family and friends instead. We'll help any time. Swallow seemed really worried, you know.

...I hope you know what you're doing.

[They're a little alike, in how they bottle things up. But Sinclair's temper had always been near the surface, while Barrett didn't seem to have one at all.

Until now.

Sinclair had already broken three times now. Each time, he put himself back together a little stronger with bruised and bloody hands, voices of his loved ones whispering comfort in his ears. He hopes the last time will be the final time.

He hopes Barrett will listen to the voices that actually care about him, instead of...whatever this was]

1/2

[gluttoning]

My family isn't here.

Lily told me I'd

[A pause, the message sending too early.]

2/2

[gluttoning]

[After a few moments:]

Lily told me enough. He made it. He knows better than anyone else.

I believe him.

[insinning]

[...this is. Bad. He hopes Swallow can speak sense. She seems closer.]

One person shouldn't hold all your faith.

[gluttoning]

Maybe not.

But I'd rather be with the ones who have faith in me, too.

I don't need help. I need to do my job. And my job is getting all of you out of here to safety. I'm not going to be taken out just because I'm scared or because I messed up.

Lily believes I can. Even if the rest of you don't.

[insinning]

did it occur to you this isn't a job for one person? none of this was ever meant to be handled by just one. why wont you accept the help when people try to give it to you?

[gluttoning]

Because I should be able to do enough of it on my own! How many times do I need to say it?

If people want to step in, then fine. I won't stop them. It doesn't change anything. I'm not going to be left behind because I didn't try hard enough.

[insinning]

Who put that horrible responsibility on you?

we're all meant to be working together. but you wont tell anyone what's going on.

how many things are you still holding back?

[gluttoning]

No one put anything on me. I accepted it because I wanted to help people.

I told you exactly what I knew, Vogel, and no one believed me. Why should I tell anyone anything else?

[insinning]

You haven't told us everything.

There's one thing that's been bothering me: did you bring have Morgan and Lily meet?

[gluttoning]

No.

When I asked, Lily said no. If Morgan's talked to him, it was on his own.

[insinning]

how many of you have been talking to Lily? Can you at least tell me that?

[gluttoning]

Five.

There was a sixth but it went bad. He won't let anyone else in now.

[insinning]

You. Levi. Uta. Makoto?....who was the fifth? Why did it go bad with the sixth? Were they at the meeting?

[gluttoning]

I can't tell you the last one or they'll probably kill me.

I don't know the sixth, or what happened. I wasn't there. I just know it was why Lily refused to talk to Morgan.

[insinning]

Were they at the meeting?

[And on that ]

Back then Makoto said that Morgan told him he was being taunted by 'dv'. By glitches. Why doesn't Lily like Morgan? Is he why Morgan can't remember anything properly outside of the game?

[gluttoning]

I don't know. If they were there, they didn't speak up.

I don't know about anything to do with Morgan. Lily doesn't talk about that with me. But Lily doesn't take memories. He just shares ones that already exist. [As far as he knows, anyway. But he is not in the mood to argue.] Morgan's been like that for a week now. It's been worse since the meeting. I don't know why.

I'm going to try talking to both of them.

[insinning]

...can you tell me what he says? both of them

I'm worried.

[gluttoning]

[A pause.]

Only if it won't hurt either of you further if I tell you.

[insinning]

[ Hm ]

Okay.

[gluttoning]

Was there anything else?

[insinning]

not now. maybe later.

[gluttoning]

Okay. I'll let you know if I hear anything.

Until then? You should leave me alone. I don't want that to happen again.

[insinning]

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