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[insinning]

[???? why does everyone react that way]

Yes. It's not like that or anything, if that makes sense. He's important and that is the best word to explain it I think? Words are hard.

No. It was.

Strange.

Unsettling.

He was different.

[gluttoning]

Yeah. Words aren't what I'm good at, either.

Did he tell you the same thing? What he thinks of himself now?

[insinning]

no

It was weird. He said he couldn't love, and then he was happy that I would love him anyway.

that's not him.

[gluttoning]

It reminds me of when we first met. Just worse. At least back then, he just couldn't remember how.

He remembers something we did together in Malibu. But he thinks it happened at the beaches here. And he thinks all of my memories of him are fake.

...

Vogel. What would you do if you thought you deserved to be unloved?

[insinning]

[ As someone who genuinely believed he deserved everything coming at him for his mistakes uhhh ]

I'd let people do whatever they wanted if it meant I had purpose

1/2

[gluttoning]

Yeah.

I'm not sure he's given up like before. He still seems desperate for something, you know?

I still haven't been able to talk to Lily. But if its his fau l t

[The message sends prematurely.]

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[gluttoning]

[After a long pause:]

I'll figure out something

I'm tired of hiding.

[insinning]

[ not going around in another circular conversation but:

Sinclair will remember that. ]

i understand

just

look at other people you can count on first before you do anything

[gluttoning]

[It hurts, he thinks, that he has to wonder if Lily is going to end up as the only option.

But he keeps that to himself. It's not for Vogel. It's not for anyone. He wants to have some hope. Even if it's muddied.]

I'll try.