It might. I'm not sure. I'm not hitting on you, though.
Up until a few days ago, I thought I was physically incapable of feeling love or arousal anymore. I'm really not interested, even if I try to imagine it.
But, for some reason, I felt romantically for someone for a brief time, just recently. It makes me wonder if I'm not incapable, and maybe the capacity to feel is still there somewhere.
I was wondering if it really was possible to be disinterested and enjoy the act of physical intimacy, though. They seem like mutually exclusive concepts. So I thought your experience might offer some insight.
You've been hurt pretty bad. It's natural you'd have your defenses up, but that doesn't mean you're broken.
[But to say he's felt a spark of something like romantic feelings recently... That may be one of the unusual side effects of this game, but that doesn't invalidate Mithrun's feelings. Organic or not, that demonstrates that he's just as capable of feeling now as he was before.]
As for me, I can't engage in that sort of thing and enjoy it. I've been single for a few years now. Had the opportunity to sleep around, but the idea never interested me enough to try. I'm pretty sure I'd only feel worse afterwards if I did.
Are you thinking about hooking up with this person?
( Not broken... It feels hard to believe that, but he's the one who approached Yael, so he's taking this with an open mind. Being granted sympathy when he himself has condemned who he was as unpleasant is a little surreal, but not bad. )
I see. I assumed wrongly about you, then. Your experience sounds familiar to how I feel, I think. Maybe it's a pointless endeavor, then...
I don't think I could hook up with him even if I wanted to; he rejected me pretty completely. He said he's not capable of love, though he's capable of lust. By the way he put it, though, I don't think he finds me attractive.
Don't call it pointless. You wouldn't be bothering me with this if it was.
[Perhaps the situation isn't bothering Mithrun, per se, but there's a reason it's still sitting on his mind. If it weren't important to some degree or another, they wouldn't be having this conversation.]
Mind telling me who this guy is? I might be able to give you better advice. No pressure, of course.
I was in an accident recently. I stopped mentioning it because it was making people uncomfortable.
( He doesn't care about people's discomfort so much as he lacks the desire to deal with the awkward follow-up conversations he kept having to have after... Lessons learned.
The message arrives incomplete, and stays without its second half for about a minute before the second message arrives. )
I don't know what I want. Irrationally, I guess I just wanted him to be with me. I'd probably have been fine with whatever he wanted that to look like.
I get it. The only reason I'm playing this game's because an injury is keeping me from doing anything else.
[So he won't pity Mithrun — he wouldn't dare — but he can emphasize with him easily enough.]
Sit on that feeling for a bit. You can't change the guy's mind if he's not looking for the same things you are, so don't go thinking you need to go against your own desires just because you might feel something afterwards. What you'll feel like is shit.
Somewhat. I was with my fiancée for over a decade, but after we broke up, I had no idea what to do with myself.
I thought about sleeping around, sure. How else are you supposed to meet people these days? But whenever I'd think about actually doing it, I felt so empty that I decided it was better to be alone.
I see. I've been told I look kind of discomfiting now. Not that I mind it. But if it's not to an obstructive extent...
( He'd kind of presumed it took him out of the dating pool, partly because he hadn't considered the prospect of romance until literally Leo happened earlier. Huh. )
I probably couldn't be the type of person you need, but...
I don't mind talking to you. I'm still not sure about a number of things, but I think I understand a little more than I did before. So I'll probably talk to you again.
[Even I don't know what I need, Yael thinks to himself... but those thoughts don't make it onto his keyboard. Instead, he carefully keeps his attention squared on Mithrun.]
Focus on finding the person you need. Don't worry about me.
I'm not much for advice, but I don't mind chatting. Email me again some time if you want.
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Anyway, you just have that air. Am I wrong?
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[let him just. GET THAT OUT OF THE WAY FIRST,]
I don't sleep around. Screwing random people does nothing for me. That answer your question?
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It might. I'm not sure. I'm not hitting on you, though.
Up until a few days ago, I thought I was physically incapable of feeling love or arousal anymore. I'm really not interested, even if I try to imagine it.
But, for some reason, I felt romantically for someone for a brief time, just recently. It makes me wonder if I'm not incapable, and maybe the capacity to feel is still there somewhere.
I was wondering if it really was possible to be disinterested and enjoy the act of physical intimacy, though. They seem like mutually exclusive concepts. So I thought your experience might offer some insight.
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[But to say he's felt a spark of something like romantic feelings recently... That may be one of the unusual side effects of this game, but that doesn't invalidate Mithrun's feelings. Organic or not, that demonstrates that he's just as capable of feeling now as he was before.]
As for me, I can't engage in that sort of thing and enjoy it. I've been single for a few years now. Had the opportunity to sleep around, but the idea never interested me enough to try. I'm pretty sure I'd only feel worse afterwards if I did.
Are you thinking about hooking up with this person?
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I see. I assumed wrongly about you, then. Your experience sounds familiar to how I feel, I think. Maybe it's a pointless endeavor, then...
I don't think I could hook up with him even if I wanted to; he rejected me pretty completely. He said he's not capable of love, though he's capable of lust. By the way he put it, though, I don't think he finds me attractive.
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[Perhaps the situation isn't bothering Mithrun, per se, but there's a reason it's still sitting on his mind. If it weren't important to some degree or another, they wouldn't be having this conversation.]
Mind telling me who this guy is? I might be able to give you better advice. No pressure, of course.
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And... his DN is Faunus. His avatar looks like a satyr; tall, red eyes, horns. He's probably posted on the forums before.
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I know who you're talking about. If you had your way, what would you want from him? Sex? A relationship? Both?
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( He doesn't care about people's discomfort so much as he lacks the desire to deal with the awkward follow-up conversations he kept having to have after... Lessons learned.
The message arrives incomplete, and stays without its second half for about a minute before the second message arrives. )
I don't know what I want. Irrationally, I guess I just wanted him to be with me. I'd probably have been fine with whatever he wanted that to look like.
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[So he won't pity Mithrun — he wouldn't dare — but he can emphasize with him easily enough.]
Sit on that feeling for a bit. You can't change the guy's mind if he's not looking for the same things you are, so don't go thinking you need to go against your own desires just because you might feel something afterwards. What you'll feel like is shit.
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A minute or two of consideration. )
Are you speaking from experience?
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I thought about sleeping around, sure. How else are you supposed to meet people these days? But whenever I'd think about actually doing it, I felt so empty that I decided it was better to be alone.
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Maybe you'll meet someone here, though.
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[WHAT DOES MITHRUN KNOW THAT HE DOESN'T KNOW,]
What about you? You never know. The internet's a big place.
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As for me... I don't know. Would you date me?
( What's his rating on the dateability scale, Yael, )
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Don't get me wrong, you're cute, but that's just online. What do you look like in real life?
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I look the same but my hair is a little longer. I didn't feel like changing my avatar much. Does that make a difference?
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[Goddamn, the twinks in this game are so forward. Not that Yael minds when they're cute, but still.]
Sure. I'd take you on a date. Can't promise we'd hit it off or have good chemistry, but I'd give it a shot.
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I see. I've been told I look kind of discomfiting now. Not that I mind it. But if it's not to an obstructive extent...
( He'd kind of presumed it took him out of the dating pool, partly because he hadn't considered the prospect of romance until literally Leo happened earlier. Huh. )
I probably couldn't be the type of person you need, but...
I don't mind talking to you. I'm still not sure about a number of things, but I think I understand a little more than I did before. So I'll probably talk to you again.
( In his weird way he's saying thanks, )
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Focus on finding the person you need. Don't worry about me.
I'm not much for advice, but I don't mind chatting. Email me again some time if you want.