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[trashtier]

Wait, really? I guess that kinda makes sense if Lily and Zelkova are related... Maybe they give out similar cores, too?

And yeah, we all had flower names. Barrett was Sunflower, etc. That's it, though. Nothing like Tarvos or Macha.

[curvaceous]

They might, yeah. But mine was called Strange Core U. You guys probably all got Virus ones. Be careful with how you use yours, okay?

And I'm glad to hear it.

Still, remember what I said. Doesn't matter how injured or exhausted I am. If he did anything to you, I will fight for you.

[ She'll take the exhaustion. She'll take the pain.

There is no sense of self-preservation when it comes to Levi. ]

[trashtier]

[...]

Thanks, Kara-chan.

I won't lie. I've tried not to think about it, but it's not like I can ignore the possibility that he'll do something to me. I've got his core in me, and as far as I know, I can't take it out.

But if I do start acting weird, just... Please don't let me hurt you.

[He wouldn't ask her to avoid a fight altogether, because that's not who Kara is. Besides...knowing Kara would help him even if he turned into a monster makes him feel some kind of way.]

[curvaceous]

Then don't ignore it. Stay vigilant. If something feels strange, tell me or Barrett or someone right away.

As for your concern over me... Hurt me all you want. Insult me, burn me, skewer me — I don't care. I can take it.

I'd get you back.

No matter what it means for me.

[trashtier]

[Oh, Kara-chan...]

Fine, I'll fix my request.

Don't die saving me.

Otherwise, what will be the point of a second chance at life if you're not in it?

cw suicidal ideation just in case

[curvaceous]

I don't plan on it. However...if I had to choose, I would choose you.

I won't go down easily, don't be mistaken.

But I've accepted that I would sacrifice myself if it was the only way to keep you and others alive, a while ago.

cw suicidal ideation cont.

[trashtier]

What are you SAYING? Don't tell me you've been going into every battle thinking "it's cool if I die as long as I'm saving the others"???

Call me selfish, but I don't want you being okay with trading your life for mine or anyone else's!

cw cont

[curvaceous]

You want me to just sit here and watch you die?? Are you joking??

cw cont

[trashtier]

Of course I don't!

I just don't want to live without you either. And I hate how you're ready to die.

[curvaceous]

[ ...

Her response comes a few minutes later. ]

Okay. I get it. I'm sorry, Levi.

I'm just...

I'm scared, I guess. Of what he's going to do to you. You know I'd never want to hurt you, but if he turns you...I'll have to

I've been struggling with that idea since people started changing. It's why I've had to leave our room sometimes.

It's hard to think of a world where we'd be fighting each other

but if it's a world where we can both make it out alive, I'll gladly live in it

I hope that helps.

I'm sorry.

[trashtier]

I'm sorry too.

It's really hard to live with this big "what if" storm hanging over us. What if I turn, what if we have to fight, what if...

And just ignoring isn't really going to help much either, because we have to be prepared for anything.

But the plus side right now is that we know if the worst comes to pass, it's not over. There'll always be hope that things will turn out okay.

[Until Uta happens, but...]

So let's not resign ourselves to a bad end, okay?

[curvaceous]

You're right.

I won't do that, then. Just...if it happens, put up a good fight. Let's at least make it a little fun before I stop you. :P

Can I see you?

[trashtier]

I wish I could promise to make it fun, but the phases so far have just been edgy killjoys. I don't have high hopes for any that follow.

Yeah of course! I'm at the training grounds right now but I can meet you wherever.