I think I have to keep moving. But if I keep moving I'm frustrated. There's nowhere to move.
If I accept there's nothing I can do, I think I'll stop moving at all.
( The second line is little literal, a little reminiscent of when he'd said revenge was the only thing that kept him up and moving. If he accepts there's no way out, at least not right now, and there's no means to his revenge - then that cuts his strings. He's limp.
He feels helpless, and he doesn't know whether to resign to it or not. But... )
But I'd lose my time with the people I know here if I let that happen.
But even if we manage to reconnect to our bodies and leave the beta... it doesn't really matter, I guess. I won't see almost anyone here again.
( Whether he means due to death induced by revenge or due to more general reasons, like distance, is unclear.
It's a lot easier to let go of a life when you don't think there's going to ever be much in it. )
[Even if some of it scares him to read. The reminder that life after this, in Morgan's eyes, will be short and serving almost nothing.
Don't go somewhere no one can follow.
He wishes so deeply he were a smarter man. Maybe he could have words to say that would make life appetizing. But... it's not his job, to force Morgan's hand. It's not his life, no matter how much it hurts.]
( He phrases it like that, but he's got A Lot of aggression to get out, )
What did your last set do?
( Asked as such, but more "Are you sure you want to test it?" in intent. He's seen the lily lance, and he can only guess the prior set was meant to needle at some tender spots. )
I know it's better to test my armor with someone. Having best in slot right now means a lot to me if it means I can keep tanking. I just don't want to do it blindly.
Bring potions. Also snacks. I'll have some, too, but it can't hurt.
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It's not your fault. I think something happened.
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( SULKY )
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Are you frustrated about it?
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A pause. )
I think so. I feel like I can't do anything except wait for things to happen to us.
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I'm not sure I know how.
I think I have to keep moving. But if I keep moving I'm frustrated. There's nowhere to move.
If I accept there's nothing I can do, I think I'll stop moving at all.
( The second line is little literal, a little reminiscent of when he'd said revenge was the only thing that kept him up and moving. If he accepts there's no way out, at least not right now, and there's no means to his revenge - then that cuts his strings. He's limp.
He feels helpless, and he doesn't know whether to resign to it or not. But... )
But I'd lose my time with the people I know here if I let that happen.
But even if we manage to reconnect to our bodies and leave the beta... it doesn't really matter, I guess. I won't see almost anyone here again.
( Whether he means due to death induced by revenge or due to more general reasons, like distance, is unclear.
It's a lot easier to let go of a life when you don't think there's going to ever be much in it. )
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[Even if some of it scares him to read. The reminder that life after this, in Morgan's eyes, will be short and serving almost nothing.
Don't go somewhere no one can follow.
He wishes so deeply he were a smarter man. Maybe he could have words to say that would make life appetizing. But... it's not his job, to force Morgan's hand. It's not his life, no matter how much it hurts.]
Do you regret it at all? Coming to the beta?
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Despite everything, I think I like the people here. And I didn't like it when the flowers started to whither.
( The ones he was sent at the hospital from Fragment players, which Cael had set in the living room. )
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[A pause.]
Maybe we don't have a lot of places to move, but we still can move. If I can't take you with me, then maybe I can go with you instead.
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In Fragment, you mean?
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I have a new armor set I haven't tested yet. Come with me on a run.
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( He phrases it like that, but he's got A Lot of aggression to get out, )
What did your last set do?
( Asked as such, but more "Are you sure you want to test it?" in intent. He's seen the lily lance, and he can only guess the prior set was meant to needle at some tender spots. )
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I didn't want to put anybody else through any of that. So I've had most of it locked up at the guild.
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I see. If you're sure.
I have a skin on over mine. ( Implying he's wearing the fakerun armor, ) I can meet you at the Mac Anu Gate. Tell me if you want me to bring anything.
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I know it's better to test my armor with someone. Having best in slot right now means a lot to me if it means I can keep tanking. I just don't want to do it blindly.
Bring potions. Also snacks. I'll have some, too, but it can't hurt.
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What do you like most? Cream puffs?
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I actually like meat dishes the most. :-) Creampuffs are just easier to buy.
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There's skewers for sale somewhere or other, I think. I'll get some of those, too.
See you soon.
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Okay. See you.
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Mithrun will show up eventually, as he's wont to do - but he does get there safe and sound. )