[That was a familiar family name. Big. Famous. More powerful than his own family, but his parents always made sure their children never paid much mind to politics of the wealthy]
I think I remember that. Beatrice would always run off with the older kids and I'd want to follow her.
I used to take very good note of everyone back then. Sinclair is a name with weight.
( Someone might be useful, even if they themselves are beneath him or unimportant - that's how he used to think, in his awful little socialite brain.
It helps that he saw Emil in the news within recent memory, too. He can't say something nice, like he liked playing with them, because he didn't like most people back then; and he can't say something sympathetic, because he doesn't have much in the way of feeling in him anymore. He's always out of sync with other people.
The nicest thing he does is not ask directly about the murders, or mention he recognized him from the news - even if it may not be difficult to suspect. )
[ He waits, of course for the mention of his family. The apologies had been relentless, once. Then the curiosity. He hadn't gone to university because of it - the thought of stepping inside those buildings and meeting with people who just knew had left him shaking on the bathroom floor more than once.
[why. how come. how did your family let you. He's naive, he knows, but not that clueless. Things must have happened to Morgan too. But more importantly:]
I can't really say that was a concern. I wasn't looking for things like that, especially not here.
[ He'd add an emoticon, but he's worried that would make it come off horribly. Or maybe it comes off horribly now?
He'll just keep making this message longer and try not to die out of embarrassment]
I'm working as a clerk for a small tech company. I might go into programming too through them, but I haven't decided yet.
[ Unseen, that draws a tiny smile out of Sinclair. He can appreciate that]
Yeah. It's pretty stupid looking back.
[ The town he had grown up in had been a soft place that he used to think was full of warmth outside of school. But even then, not a single one of his father's friends had stepped up to help after the murders.
It seems reasonable. I've made money I don't have desire to use, and you're in need of it.
( To Mithrun, kindness suggests going out of your way - and he doesn't think he is. It would be very easy to give money to someone. So he is.
That Emil is working a clerk job at a startup and will have to rely on them to get a degree tells him that whatever his situation, it's probably pretty not great. )
I could cover a bachelor's and a graduate degree. But if you need more, then let me know.
[ Now he's a little worried. Offering that much money online to someone who is still technically a stranger is asking to be taken advantage of! Even he knows that. ]
Thank you. But I'd like to try to do this on my own, and learn to stand with my own two feet. I don't want to keep relying on people and burdening them.
[ It's tempting though, isn't it? To reach out and be helped, without having to do a thing on his own. But it's the kind of selfishness that hurts people and he doesn't want to do that.]
Isn't it up to the person who's helping you to decide whether you're a burden or not?
( Emil wouldn't be a burden on him, and probably wouldn't be to to anyone choosing to help him out. But that's not for Mithrun to convince him of; Emil will learn it himself.
Or die from his anxiety. Whichever comes first. )
That's fine, though. For the time being, I'm staying put. So you can contact me if you want something.
[The enthusiasm cannot be seen but the sparkles are there]
Yeah. I've never experienced anything like it. It was so cool, looking down at the root town from above. You can tell the developers put a lot of thought into how the world came together.
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My name is Morgan, if you remember. But I recall you being very young at the time; your sister was closest to me in age, I think.
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I think I remember that. Beatrice would always run off with the older kids and I'd want to follow her.
You have a good memory.
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( Someone might be useful, even if they themselves are beneath him or unimportant - that's how he used to think, in his awful little socialite brain.
It helps that he saw Emil in the news within recent memory, too. He can't say something nice, like he liked playing with them, because he didn't like most people back then; and he can't say something sympathetic, because he doesn't have much in the way of feeling in him anymore. He's always out of sync with other people.
The nicest thing he does is not ask directly about the murders, or mention he recognized him from the news - even if it may not be difficult to suspect. )
What are you doing now?
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[ He waits, of course for the mention of his family. The apologies had been relentless, once. Then the curiosity. He hadn't gone to university because of it - the thought of stepping inside those buildings and meeting with people who just knew had left him shaking on the bathroom floor more than once.
'Mithrun' is kind, even if Emil knows better.]
IRL or here?
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I'm not doing anything at all right now, for the record. So you don't really need to impress me, if that's a concern.
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why. how come. how did your family let you.He's naive, he knows, but not that clueless. Things must have happened to Morgan too. But more importantly:]I can't really say that was a concern. I wasn't looking for things like that, especially not here.
[ He'd add an emoticon, but he's worried that would make it come off horribly. Or maybe it comes off horribly now?
He'll just keep making this message longer and try not to die out of embarrassment]
I'm working as a clerk for a small tech company. I might go into programming too through them, but I haven't decided yet.
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Or, did he waste it, not know how to capitalize on it? Ah, well. )
"Things like that"?
That's a pretty modest position, though. Are you enjoying it, working there?
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[ The inheritance feels tainted. But he can't tell people that. He knows some of his coworkers look down on him for it. playing at being poor, huh?
It's complicated.]
I don't have a degree. So it's the best I can do for now. I don't mind. Some of my co-workers are nice, like Rodya and Dante.
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( He sure used to care about all that junk, though. )
I see. If you need a financial bonus at some point, I wouldn't mind sending something your way. But there's no need to rush your career path, either.
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Yeah. It's pretty stupid looking back.
[ The town he had grown up in had been a soft place that he used to think was full of warmth outside of school. But even then, not a single one of his father's friends had stepped up to help after the murders.
It said a lot.
Reading the next bit and flustering]
that's. Very kind of you
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( To Mithrun, kindness suggests going out of your way - and he doesn't think he is. It would be very easy to give money to someone. So he is.
That Emil is working a clerk job at a startup and will have to rely on them to get a degree tells him that whatever his situation, it's probably pretty not great. )
I could cover a bachelor's and a graduate degree. But if you need more, then let me know.
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[ Now he's a little worried. Offering that much money online to someone who is still technically a stranger is asking to be taken advantage of! Even he knows that. ]
Thank you. But I'd like to try to do this on my own, and learn to stand with my own two feet. I don't want to keep relying on people and burdening them.
[ It's tempting though, isn't it? To reach out and be helped, without having to do a thing on his own. But it's the kind of selfishness that hurts people and he doesn't want to do that.]
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( Emil wouldn't be a burden on him, and probably wouldn't be to to anyone choosing to help him out. But that's not for Mithrun to convince him of; Emil will learn it himself.
Or die from his anxiety. Whichever comes first. )
That's fine, though. For the time being, I'm staying put. So you can contact me if you want something.
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Me too. If you just want to talk. Or something. It was good to meet someone who remembers Beatrice.
[ And not like, you know, a random stranger fawning over her murderer, but yes.
And +1 friend request. Does Mithrun accept? ]
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Sure.
We can do runs together, too.
( He's better at action-oriented stuff, so that's said with positive intent from him. )
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Yeah. I've never experienced anything like it. It was so cool, looking down at the root town from above. You can tell the developers put a lot of thought into how the world came together.
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( Since Emil seems to like it, and all. )
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