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I don't have a choice how I live. You do.

Choose before it's chosen for you.

[insinning]

[Is that really true? Is Mithrun's injury so crippling he can never make a choice that isn't revenge?]...I'll have to get stronger then.

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Is that something you want to do alone?

[insinning]

...I'm a coward. I hate being alone.

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Then, I'm here.

What do you think will make you stronger?

( We're workshopping this, )

[insinning]

[Ah. That's right. Mithrun would be here]

Knowing. I think. What's there.

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What those feelings are?

[insinning]

[A long pause as Sinclair considers that.

And then]

Yes. How far they go. How far I'm willing to go.

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How do you think you can find out?

[insinning]

When the time comes.

[Winter hadn't taken him seriously, he think. But he had held back]

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I'll be with you then. You won't be alone when you find out.

( Whether Sinclair's as awful as he's scared of or not. Neither could make Mithrun turn away from him - not for any poetic, beautiful reason, but because it's all the same to him.

Sinclair is Sinclair, whether he's kind of cruel. What matters is largely that he doesn't end up a gibbering flesh fetishist like Kromer. Sensible and functional and happy is fine, even if Sinclair comes out of all this with a knife's edge. )

[insinning]

[Ah

that was his biggest fear

But now he can

This isn't something you say 'thank you' for

But he's thankful regardless]

okay

Okay

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We still have time. If there's anything else you're afraid of, you can talk to me, whenever you want.

( This is a revenge pact. We both get our revenge. We both learn what it means to feel, for the first time in a long time, free. We won't be alone in it.

And we can't have Sinclair backing out. )

[insinning]

[Maybe this is the confidence he needs.

Morgan wont let him feel lost in his anger alone.

Morgan knows he's not innocent, not in the way everyone seems to believe he is.

And he doesn't mind. It's a shared goal.

If Morgan can help him kill that --- and ---- then...

He can help Morgan too. He has a clearer direction now]

Thank you.