Yes, I was thinking about it from their perspective, but the story is that I used to cry all of the time when I was a baby. Nothing they did would get me to stop crying until they saw a mother nearby singing to her child and try that.
Obviously there's a bit more in my song than just that, but that memory inspired the song.
The time that I had with my parents are memories that I hold most dear to my heart. They're what keeps my spirits high regardless of what is happening because as hard and difficult things can become, they left me with the life that I have now.
I think that even if the mind forgets, there is a part of the body that will always remember. It might be a little different for me now, but nothing really is ever gone forever once it's been uploaded, right?
A hard drive only lasts three, perhaps five years. It's so much more fragile than even a weak human. It's easy to envision the information online as permanent, but it's an illusion. All it does is make the data more dense. So much can vanish from a single server failure... and because we think something will always be there, it doesn't occur to us to preserve a piece of it for ourselves.
What lasts forever are the emotions of the person who experienced it.
My dad read a lot of weird books, but it's the same principle of how you could define someone's existence by how they are remembered. Once someone is gone and forgotten... Did they ever exist?
But no. I was perfectly healthy! Streaming takes a lot of you, you know!
I won't say who; there have been enough people who have gotten themselves involved.
I used my family's notoriety to my advantage and kept myself hidden as well as I could. The person running my channel—the person who is behind "Uta" was never linked to my family on paper.
[ and even though she's not answering michel's question of whether or not she was afraid, it should be pretty obvious what the answer is. ]
Every memory that I've made as "Uta" is special to me. It's one reason why I value every person who has told me that they loved or have been moved by any of my songs. I'm glad to have been able to share them with as many people as I did.
If we're able to repair the logout bug... there's no reason that you can't.
Even if your data only exists here, the two worlds aren't separated once those who can leave are able to. They could take your songs back with them. And new players could come here as well.
I really hope that is what ends up being the case.
I'm nothing like Zelkova but I'll do my best to welcome any and all new players who come to enjoy the game. You know, once all of this gets figured out.
Hey! Kitten have sharp teeth, you know. It's not nothing if they bite you. Their tiny claws too!
[ not that is any better helping her case?? either way, pats michele on the head. he is doing his absolute best and should be rewarded for that. ]
But a dungeon run doesn't sound too bad. It's satisfying hitting monsters and being rewarded for it. Obviously we don't have to look too far for monsters given how things are but dungeons are just different.
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Yes, I was thinking about it from their perspective, but the story is that I used to cry all of the time when I was a baby. Nothing they did would get me to stop crying until they saw a mother nearby singing to her child and try that.
Obviously there's a bit more in my song than just that, but that memory inspired the song.
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Are you close to your parents?
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I am... I was.
The time that I had with my parents are memories that I hold most dear to my heart. They're what keeps my spirits high regardless of what is happening because as hard and difficult things can become, they left me with the life that I have now.
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I... would have said that the value of memories is that they're unchanging. You can hold fast to the shape of them long after their moment is gone.
[ But, you know. Things sure have been getting fun and hazy. ]
I hope the song becomes like a memory for you as well. And those feelings remain.
oh. i didn't hit enter....
I think that even if the mind forgets, there is a part of the body that will always remember. It might be a little different for me now, but nothing really is ever gone forever once it's been uploaded, right?
And I really hope that is the case as well.
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A hard drive only lasts three, perhaps five years. It's so much more fragile than even a weak human. It's easy to envision the information online as permanent, but it's an illusion. All it does is make the data more dense. So much can vanish from a single server failure... and because we think something will always be there, it doesn't occur to us to preserve a piece of it for ourselves.
What lasts forever are the emotions of the person who experienced it.
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But three to five years is more time than I thought I'd have had under more normal circumstances.
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[ But, even so... Still, that's one way to jar him out of that line of thought. ]
Were you ill?
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But no. I was perfectly healthy! Streaming takes a lot of you, you know!
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I was being hunted.
I died because they found me.
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They still existed. Existence doesn't require proof. But it is painful to be forgotten.
Hunted by who? And you ran your channel knowing that?
Weren't you afraid?
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I used my family's notoriety to my advantage and kept myself hidden as well as I could. The person running my channel—the person who is behind "Uta" was never linked to my family on paper.
[ and even though she's not answering michel's question of whether or not she was afraid, it should be pretty obvious what the answer is. ]
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[ There's plenty to infer there, about both. He's quiet for a while before finally: ]
Was it worth it to you anyway? To be able to share your songs and speak to others. To be seen by so many even while you were in hiding.
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Every memory that I've made as "Uta" is special to me. It's one reason why I value every person who has told me that they loved or have been moved by any of my songs. I'm glad to have been able to share them with as many people as I did.
My only regret is that I couldn't do more.
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Even if your data only exists here, the two worlds aren't separated once those who can leave are able to. They could take your songs back with them. And new players could come here as well.
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I'm nothing like Zelkova but I'll do my best to welcome any and all new players who come to enjoy the game. You know, once all of this gets figured out.
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But I also pray that this is "figured out" soon.
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With as many heads as we have working on it, I'm sure we'll be able to find some sort of solution.
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[ As for the rest, well. He has no confidence, but for this moment he's keeping his pessimism closer to his chest. ]
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It wouldn't be good to have someone who might get angry with any newbie who breaks things - would it?
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Would you really get angry with people? I can't picture it...
But that's how novice players learn fastest. Tell them off so they don't make the same mistakes.
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I COULD! Everyone gets mad!!! If the situation was right...
And of course I know that. It was just an example.
[ apparently not one that she'd be guilty of. ]
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...I doubt you're in the mood for a dungeon run. But, if you want a party member for another purpose
[ and yeah he just sends that without punctuation while he's still trying to figure out the rest of the sentence. let him live... ]
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[ not that is any better helping her case?? either way, pats michele on the head. he is doing his absolute best and should be rewarded for that. ]
But a dungeon run doesn't sound too bad. It's satisfying hitting monsters and being rewarded for it. Obviously we don't have to look too far for monsters given how things are but dungeons are just different.
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...They are. And I wouldn't mind the chance to gather more resources. Meet me at the Chaos Gate in Mac Anu?