[It’s so ironic that every impulse in his brain is trying to reject the honesty Kara is bearing for him. He’s just a useless, weird, shut-in otaku who has nothing going for him. How could that have helped?
And yet…for once, maybe he’s more than he thinks he is.]
It’s okay. I TMI’d at you first. I’m just surprised is all.
I’m not used to compliments so I’m confused but happy lol.
Better to be pleasantly surprised than become numb to them, honestly. That's just how I see it.
I have to admit, we live pretty opposite lifestyles! I'm always out of the house, doing stuff. Lol. It's nice to kinda just sit here and talk to someone nice without worrying about appearances.
Well YEAH you’re worth my time! And it’s because I saw your thoughts that we’re here in the first place, I think.
[Reflecting on it, he probably would have abandoned the encounter in shame and embarrassment midway through.
He’s…really glad he didn’t.
…Party phase…
Nvm no he’s not. /not serious]
Can’t relate unless you’re talking about RPG parties lmao.
But I guess you’re right about meeting people here though. I sure couldn’t just go out and do that IRL. So I guess this game is good for all types of people.
Very true! I guess that "curse" was more of a blessing. ^_^ Would it have been scarier if you couldn't read them? I think it might've been for me, tbh.
Well tbh, RPG parties have been more fun anyways! I'm having a blast doing them. If you wanna go on a dungeon run sometime, let me know? I'm a pretty good fighter :3
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At least in our case, yeah. I really hope nothing bad ended up with it later on!!
It would have TOTALLY been scarier. It was scary enough approaching you!! Which, in hindsight, feels ridiculous. But it’s true! I had to work up a lot of courage!!
Anyway I’d love to party up with you! I’m glad you’re seeing how much better games are than parties full of normie activities. B)
Hahaha, aw! I'm glad you did. Hoping you don't feel that way anymore? :D
LOL normie activities?! ... I mean...yeah you're not wrong. People I know are pretty not into this stuff. They just haven't given it a chance tbh. I'm having a blast!
Eh, that's okay! Like I said, I'm enjoying stuff like video game parties a lot more than regular ones. I actually haven't really done any of that since joining this MMO. :0
And...idk if this sounds weird but if we ever met IRL, I'm sure you'd be one of the sweetest people I'd know in-person :D Or like, THE sweetest maybe?! Haha. Like I said, I don't open up to people easily, so...
But yeah! I'll give it a shot. I think if I like RPG stories, I'll probably like anime, too?
[ She's blissfully unaware that anything is wrong.
And also throwing her phone on her bed and scrubbing her face after sending this. Did she call him sweet? Well, yes, she meant it, but even so...what is she doing? And why is she so embarrassed over it? ]
[He frantically reads the text over and over again, looking for any signs that this is just a joke. It's always a joke. Pick on the shy nerd and give him hope that he's wanted for once. No one ever...
He can't find one.
But he has to ask anyway.]
You're not serious, right?
About...thinking I'm sweet.
[SORRY HE'S SINGLING THAT OUT FOR THE TIME BEING KARA...HE'S SHORT-CIRCUITING.]
Also I forgot this is VR so ignore the phone part, but yeah she's losing her mind anyway?? ]
Levi I will quote every single moment of you being sweet to me if you asked
I don't take this stuff lightly
You've been nicer to me in the span of a few weeks than most people have been in, like, months. Tbf, I haven't been the most authentic person myself, but it's easy to do that around you
[ That part about people being unkind may be confirmation bias talking, because she doesn't tend to give people a chance. She knows people like Dehya and Hani are great, but that's...pretty much it.
None of that discredits the sentiment, though. Her heart is pounding in her chest. No one has made her feel like that in...years, actually. ]
People catch on to things sometimes, so it's like...my fault too. But other times people are just kinda catty and prideful. Or people are just looking for a hookup and don't bother trying to treat you decently first. Stuff like that lol. And I don't have a good relationship with my family either, so I'm on my own a lot of the time
There's something really comfortable about talking to you though
That's why I find IRL so intimidating though. I can never figure out if someone's being genuine or just trying to string me along so they can make fun of me later. I get so tired of social games and all the different cues you gotta look out for. So I just avoid dealing with it if I can help it.
But if talking to me is an escape from all of that, then I'm glad. I'll keep trying my best at this whole social thing.
I think that's fair. Still, it makes me sad to hear that people have made fun of you. Being strung along sucks, and navigating social situations is frightening so I can't blame you.
But talking to you...it's not just an escape, though. It's nice, yeah, but... I just want to talk to you because we're friends. Don't think too hard about it! I'll back off if it gets to be too much.
I kind of accepted it a while ago. But it does still suck. And it sucks that YOU'VE had to deal with it too! It becomes way too easy to start assuming the worst of every new person you meet, doesn't it?
[His reply to second bit takes some time to form a response for.]
You don't have to back off. I want to get used to this. I really want to keep talking to you, especially after you said that.
[He says "especially after that" but it's not quite true. He determined his desire to keep talking to Kara the moment they parted ways at the carnival.]
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And yet…for once, maybe he’s more than he thinks he is.]
It’s okay. I TMI’d at you first. I’m just surprised is all.
I’m not used to compliments so I’m confused but happy lol.
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I have to admit, we live pretty opposite lifestyles! I'm always out of the house, doing stuff. Lol. It's nice to kinda just sit here and talk to someone nice without worrying about appearances.
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[He puts that out there without thinking. But if Kara is speaking from experience, it really does sound like a different brand of personal hell.]
For real. I can’t even imagine going out that often! It’s draining my MP to even think about so I don’t know how you put up with it.
Do you just not like chilling at home or something?
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I just like living life on the edge sometimes xDD
LOL, just kidding! Honestly, you're right! I like being busy. Plus, I'm still in college. Gotta enjoy my party phase while I still can!
That's why the MMO is a good change of pace, though. It's nice to meet people this way.
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[Reflecting on it, he probably would have abandoned the encounter in shame and embarrassment midway through.
He’s…really glad he didn’t.
…Party phase…
Nvm no he’s not. /not serious]
Can’t relate unless you’re talking about RPG parties lmao.
But I guess you’re right about meeting people here though. I sure couldn’t just go out and do that IRL. So I guess this game is good for all types of people.
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Well tbh, RPG parties have been more fun anyways! I'm having a blast doing them. If you wanna go on a dungeon run sometime, let me know? I'm a pretty good fighter :3
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It would have TOTALLY been scarier. It was scary enough approaching you!! Which, in hindsight, feels ridiculous. But it’s true! I had to work up a lot of courage!!
Anyway I’d love to party up with you! I’m glad you’re seeing how much better games are than parties full of normie activities. B)
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LOL normie activities?! ... I mean...yeah you're not wrong. People I know are pretty not into this stuff. They just haven't given it a chance tbh. I'm having a blast!
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Yeah, normie activities. Like...drinking and talking and dancing and making out or whatever.
[LEVI...HONEY...]
At least YOU'RE seeing the light!
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Okay but those things are all pretty fun!!!
[ HELLO...?? ]
But I can enjoy that stuff AND like video games! Maybe I'll get into anime soon, too!
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Must be nice to like both. I definitely couldn't.
I hope you wind up liking anime though. I think it'd be fun to talk to you about it.
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And...idk if this sounds weird but if we ever met IRL, I'm sure you'd be one of the sweetest people I'd know in-person :D Or like, THE sweetest maybe?! Haha. Like I said, I don't open up to people easily, so...
But yeah! I'll give it a shot. I think if I like RPG stories, I'll probably like anime, too?
[ She's blissfully unaware that anything is wrong.
And also throwing her phone on her bed and scrubbing her face after sending this. Did she call him sweet? Well, yes, she meant it, but even so...what is she doing? And why is she so embarrassed over it? ]
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His heart leaps into his throat and it's like the world stops for a moment.
What the hell is this?]
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He can't find one.
But he has to ask anyway.]
You're not serious, right?
About...thinking I'm sweet.
[SORRY HE'S SINGLING THAT OUT FOR THE TIME BEING KARA...HE'S SHORT-CIRCUITING.]
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Also I forgot this is VR so ignore the phone part, but yeah she's losing her mind anyway?? ]
Levi I will quote every single moment of you being sweet to me if you asked
I don't take this stuff lightly
You've been nicer to me in the span of a few weeks than most people have been in, like, months. Tbf, I haven't been the most authentic person myself, but it's easy to do that around you
[ That part about people being unkind may be confirmation bias talking, because she doesn't tend to give people a chance. She knows people like Dehya and Hani are great, but that's...pretty much it.
None of that discredits the sentiment, though. Her heart is pounding in her chest. No one has made her feel like that in...years, actually. ]
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please don't i think i'd die irl
[He's so frazzled, he hits send on that one before finishing the message oops...]
I didn't mean to leave you with that I'm sorry kfshdkjhs.
This is just so hard for me to believe.
AND I DO BELIEVE YOU!! It's just
How could ANYONE not be nice to you? Am I just biased or something??
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[ haha!! why did she send that!!!!! ANYWAY!!! ]
Well
People catch on to things sometimes, so it's like...my fault too. But other times people are just kinda catty and prideful. Or people are just looking for a hookup and don't bother trying to treat you decently first. Stuff like that lol. And I don't have a good relationship with my family either, so I'm on my own a lot of the time
There's something really comfortable about talking to you though
It feels very real
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[TYPED THROUGH INTERNAL SCREAMING.
Ah...family issues. He gets that.]
That's why I find IRL so intimidating though. I can never figure out if someone's being genuine or just trying to string me along so they can make fun of me later. I get so tired of social games and all the different cues you gotta look out for. So I just avoid dealing with it if I can help it.
But if talking to me is an escape from all of that, then I'm glad. I'll keep trying my best at this whole social thing.
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But talking to you...it's not just an escape, though. It's nice, yeah, but... I just want to talk to you because we're friends. Don't think too hard about it! I'll back off if it gets to be too much.
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[His reply to second bit takes some time to form a response for.]
You don't have to back off. I want to get used to this. I really want to keep talking to you, especially after you said that.
[He says "especially after that" but it's not quite true. He determined his desire to keep talking to Kara the moment they parted ways at the carnival.]
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Let's go on that dungeon run together.
I'd like to see you again.
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[Then a second or two later:]
Like right now??
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At the dungeon or now, doesn't matter! I have a lot of time these days, when I'm not doing homework or working lol
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Can we meet up now?
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Where at?
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