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You don't mind being blamed for his death?

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the courts officially ruled that i didnt
but it never changed the public opinion
so i dont really care

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That isn't what I asked.

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[ siiiiiiiiigh ]

i dont mind
bc maybe if i wasnt a coward
i would have actually done it

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( all this time mithrun has been like "oh it's that kid who killed his last boyfriend. huh." and now it turns out it's not true?

well, it's not all that surprising if oria's being honest. not because he's learned particular faith in oria, but because rumors do tend to be false half the time. see also: rumors about his brother's legitimacy. )

You'd have lost him either way. Wouldn't you?

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yeah
uncurable disease at its terminal stage and all
the least i could have done was send him off painlessly

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I wouldn't recommend it. It's a heavy weight.

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whats one more?

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Sure. It's your life.

Most people break down, eventually. But you can always choose when.

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gee
thanks for the vote of confidence
but are you saying that you will too

[ Again? ]

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I might. I don't mind so long as I can do the one thing I want to do before that happens.

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youre not gonna tell me what it is huh
a lot of people seem to have something to do in the game
im feeling left out!!!

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( Pause. )

What exactly did you see in the mirror when it reflected my memory?

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you were gonna join sarabi to get her back

[ Even Oria was like nonononocat.avi about it. ]

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I see.

She died because of my choice, so that's off the table.

Did you see that man?

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[ WELP ]

your teacher right
or something like that

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Yes.

I'm going to kill him.

( Now you know! What he wants to do! Yay! )

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[ dude ]

and the game helps
how???

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I can't kill him if I'm in a state that lets water or traffic kill me, or if I can't register pain well enough to know how I've been struck.

There's been improvement. There is some effect.

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[ He's all for Mithrun improving, but... well, this is fine, right? Has nothing to--

Fuck. He's already involved by knowing this piece of information now. He won't call the police on him, but damn, Mithrun. Damn. Also, the vindictive energy he's showing makes Oria feel like he's among kindred spirits.

siiiiiiigh sigh sigh siiiigh ]

im glad to see that theres been improvement
what helps you improve the most?
running dungeons?

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( He's not too fussed about the police when his parents are wrestling them down with money, but his parents might just get ticked off enough if they realize Mithrun's not being tight-lipped online. )

For the time being. There's experiences in dungeons that static locations, like Root Towns, don't entirely offer.

Though, there are experiences in Root Towns that don't exist in dungeons. So I still test for glitches there.

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[ his parents are in on it too... damn... ]

well if you need help with refining reaction times
i can help with some good old pvp in the arena
or whatever else you might need

[ Just don't drag his family into it. ]

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( image is everything )

I'll take you up on that soon. I'm doing another series of Areas shortly.

Regardless, I would recommend against killing another person unless your intent is murder. You can't dress it up much by calling it a mercy.

Death is death all the same.

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[ looks at oria's pk rampage

??? ]

a word from the wise?

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( that's fine it's not real )

More or less. Niamh's death was also blood on my hands.

( Among many other similarly indirect deaths, but he doesn't put a name on them because he doesn't... care about them. )

Our situations aren't really the same. But neither her nor him are here anymore.

( So, you know. )