You said a lot of people would miss me, right? I remember reading the posts on the forums, and I saw the talk of flowers. But I don't remember the flowers. I don't remember almost anything beyond Fragment.
I feel like, based on the things I've written in my messages, or the forums... I haven't forgotten too much that matters. I've met most of the people I care about here. And I accepted the loss, mostly, I guess.
But I feel a lot further away from people now. Even though I've only met most people here in Fragment. It feels like I've lost something fundamentally human; though, I guess it was never mine to begin with...
I still have some friends, I guess. And I'm trying to do the things I would do before, in Fragment. But I feel distinct now. Separate. It's strange. Even when I'm with Barrett I feel kind of alone. And I don't know if there's anyone else like me yet.
It doesn't make much sense, so it's fine if you have nothing to respond with. But I wanted to say it before I lost the words for this, too.
If you could. I think... I accept that maybe I am be what I am, from now on. But... I think I'd like to know a little more about what I'm missing. I don't think I want to stand so apart.
( Ah. Mentally taking notes... is it worth to literally take notes...? )
I see. That explains how we were connected, but... Why would you go out of your way, when I was at the hospital? That extends far past being paid for deliveries, right?
I'd like to keep getting to know you. I think I've been wrapped up in myself for a long time. And I haven't really thought about the people around me.
I don't really know what I can do for you in return, but
( Clearly he's a little more in tune with doing Physical Acts In Return besides just offering that he cares, back, but at least that much seems implied, somewhat. )
We can talk. Especially if it helps as an archive for the memories you don't want to forget.
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I feel like, based on the things I've written in my messages, or the forums... I haven't forgotten too much that matters. I've met most of the people I care about here. And I accepted the loss, mostly, I guess.
But I feel a lot further away from people now. Even though I've only met most people here in Fragment. It feels like I've lost something fundamentally human; though, I guess it was never mine to begin with...
I still have some friends, I guess. And I'm trying to do the things I would do before, in Fragment. But I feel distinct now. Separate. It's strange. Even when I'm with Barrett I feel kind of alone. And I don't know if there's anyone else like me yet.
It doesn't make much sense, so it's fine if you have nothing to respond with. But I wanted to say it before I lost the words for this, too.
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I'm sorry
it looks like everyone is losing memories and you got hit more than anyone else
I can tell you some things about your real life if you want
it isn't all good but maybe the context will help you feel a little less alone?
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If you could. I think... I accept that maybe I am be what I am, from now on. But... I think I'd like to know a little more about what I'm
missing. I don't think I want to stand so apart.
Have you forgotten anything that distresses you?
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the things I've started forgetting are too important to
it's like losing a part of myself
[But right, Mithrun...]
your real name is Morgan and you live in malibu
we didn't know this before the beta but it turns out I've been doing deliveries for a while for your caretakers
you know groceries and stuff
I don't know the details of how it happened but you had an accident and were disabled
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I see. That explains how we were connected, but... Why would you go out of your way, when I was at the hospital? That extends far past being paid for deliveries, right?
Is that a part of yourself you still know?
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I didn't have to go that far but you and Cithis and Kabru are all good people and
I still care
and you know we were getting to know each other in the game even if we didn't talk before
just one of those funny coincidences
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A pause. )
I'd like to keep getting to know you. I think I've been wrapped up in myself for a long time. And I haven't really thought about the people around me.
I don't really know what I can do for you in return, but
( Clearly he's a little more in tune with doing Physical Acts In Return besides just offering that he cares, back, but at least that much seems implied, somewhat. )
We can talk. Especially if it helps as an archive for the memories you don't want to forget.
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you've lost more than most [Not just in Fragment, but in his life in general.]
and you know I'd appreciate that
talking I mean
having some way to hold onto these memories would mean a lot to me
thank you Morgan