Zelkova-kun, I’ve been told that I’m losing parts of myself. Is it alright if I share with you a memory? If I lose everything, I think I would be glad to at least have shared this with you. Will you listen?
Kara and I were roommates in the other world. Did you know? The space we shared was… a little world of our own, it felt like.
Every month, we would have one evening that was particularly special. We would share snacks from my home country. It would be delivered once a month in a mystery box. I think, if I’m remembering correctly - if I’m remembering it at all, it started off as a whim. It was almost like we were traveling together. I was always away from her, you see. I am not the type to stay.
One of our earliest special evenings, I remember looking at her… and thinking it would be wonderful if she could always be this lively, if this happiness could last for more than just this moment for her. If I could be here to see it happen for her. I don’t know if I was happy in the same sense then. I probably thought I was. In any case, that moment surprised me. Why did I think that about her?
That was, perhaps, the moment when I realized I could… care about people in a deeper way than just fond tolerance. That I could hold a person above the rest. It was Kara who caused that change in me. And all she did was exist. Importance in her existence, importance in the measure of her happiness. I have learned since about these things.
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Kara and I were roommates in the other world. Did you know? The space we shared was… a little world of our own, it felt like.
Every month, we would have one evening that was particularly special. We would share snacks from my home country. It would be delivered once a month in a mystery box. I think, if I’m remembering correctly - if I’m remembering it at all, it started off as a whim. It was almost like we were traveling together. I was always away from her, you see. I am not the type to stay.
One of our earliest special evenings, I remember looking at her… and thinking it would be wonderful if she could always be this lively, if this happiness could last for more than just this moment for her. If I could be here to see it happen for her. I don’t know if I was happy in the same sense then. I probably thought I was. In any case, that moment surprised me. Why did I think that about her?
That was, perhaps, the moment when I realized I could… care about people in a deeper way than just fond tolerance. That I could hold a person above the rest. It was Kara who caused that change in me. And all she did was exist. Importance in her existence, importance in the measure of her happiness. I have learned since about these things.
This, I don’t want to forget.
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I hope that even if you do forget it... that feeling doesn't go away. I hope that memory stays in your heart in some shape.
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Please, come to me if you need to do the same. I want to be here for you, Zelkova-kun. Let us talk again soon.
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I'll see you around soon, tabibito.