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after the nanashi post

[insinning]

Why would you say you're sure you're already dead?

[userunfriendly]

[ Ah. He could probably have put that more gently, couldn't he? ]

I didn't say I was certain. But it's more realistic. Your coworkers have a single — common — given name, a generic internet handle, and an entire region of a country to search from. Even presuming they started immediately, expecting them to find me within three days is unreasonable.

It isn't even my legal name.

[insinning]

[it is irrefutable logic and yet]

that is enough for them

and even then i think the noises they would make

isn't there someone, anyone you could believe in?

[userunfriendly]

[ It's a mark of his regard for Sinclair that the answer to this very simple question takes as long as it does. ]

No.

I assumed that if no one found me, my avatar here would cease functioning in a few days when I died. But it doesn't appear to work that way. Ultimately, there's no way of knowing now.

[insinning]

[It's the patience that Sinclair recognises in Michel's response. It hurts, but it's honest]

If you don't want to hope or you can't hope

I'll keep hoping for you.

I want you to keep existing here and there.

[userunfriendly]

You don't need to carry the weight of my hopes. I still exist here. I intend to focus on what I can do, where I am.

[ Logical as it was, what had possessed him to mention his doubts on such a public forum... He's still thoughtless at predicting the effects of his words. ]

[insinning]

im strong enough now

you matter, michel. here, anywhere. so we'll do what we can no matter what happens

[userunfriendly]

I know you will. You've always had that strength within you.

If you're certain... I may have to prevail on you for a favor. It shouldn't put you to too much trouble.

[insinning]

Whatever you need me to do, I'll do my best.