Everything that we are is a part of the game now. I would not be shocked to find that it is merely natural degradation the longer we remain here, the game trying to absorb us into its own reality.
[ A very fancy non-answer as far as answers to that question goes. ]
[Tch. Something to save for later, then, but at least it's an answer.]
Someone shared the Progenitor's name. 0koto apparently can't even type it out without it being blocked. I was able to say it out loud, but it hurt. Mithrun was the same. Leviathan wasn't.
0koto had us repeat ourselves more than once, and it got worse every time. I'd thought that much was it.
I'm apparently forgetting more now than I was earlier in the week. I don't know if that's true, though.
I can confirm it does not bother me to say that name, nor the poet's. I suppose I am akin to Leviathan, then, although whatever that must mean eludes me.
What is it that you believe you have forgotten, Barrett?
He knows how my sister died, though. And he has my phone number. And I kept asking to go over to see him. We must be friends. I wouldn't have started the guild if I didn't like him. But I don't know. I don't like that I don't remember enough.
I do get angry back. I seethe. I hate. I wish to become violent. That is not acceptable behavior where I am from, however.
I learned very quickly at the orphanage that the other children could say whatever they wished to me but it would be I who would be punished when I inevitably threw that first punch.
That is exactly how it works. Turn the other cheek, they say! Be the better person! Simply excuses to make you the villain when you take action to stop the abuse.
Once you stop saying or doing what people expect of you, many will abandon you. Not all, but many. It is the same as throwing the first punch, showing that you will defend yourself.
[ Ah, but this fighting thing... ]
I am not sure you could say or do anything that would make me that angry but I will fight you nonetheless.
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Everything that we are is a part of the game now. I would not be shocked to find that it is merely natural degradation the longer we remain here, the game trying to absorb us into its own reality.
[ A very fancy non-answer as far as answers to that question goes. ]
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[A little more upfront with the temper than usual, but he continues:]
Whatever it is, it's happening fast. I'd have a hard time believing it if I didn't have the same thing happen at the meeting.
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Not every question can be answered so simply but yes. He could if he wanted to. So could CC Corp. So could Hien or Zelkova.
What happened to you at the meeting?
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Someone shared the Progenitor's name. 0koto apparently can't even type it out without it being blocked. I was able to say it out loud, but it hurt. Mithrun was the same. Leviathan wasn't.
0koto had us repeat ourselves more than once, and it got worse every time. I'd thought that much was it.
I'm apparently forgetting more now than I was earlier in the week. I don't know if that's true, though.
about five minutes later
What is it that you believe you have forgotten, Barrett?
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A couple people are insisting that Leviathan is my brother, including him. Do you know what they're talking about?
I don't know if I believe it. I only have two siblings, and one of them is still dead.
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Of course not.
Why would they insist on such a silly lie? You two don't look a thing alike.
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He is that sort, after all.
I've encountered him before and he turns every interest into an embarrassing obsession.
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I don't know if he'd have the guts to stalk anyone. He's pretty nervous.
I do remember he got pretty happy hearing I clocked you in the teeth that one time.
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He would. Most of the game would be happy to hear that, too.
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Is that how you'd rather keep it? People always being angry at you?
Why don't you get angry back?
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I learned very quickly at the orphanage that the other children could say whatever they wished to me but it would be I who would be punished when I inevitably threw that first punch.
It is no different as an adult.
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[Or if you're just a short tempered idiot like he suddenly is.
A pause.]
Would you come fight me sometime?
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[ No, no, Barrett is valid. ]
Fight you? I suppose.
Why?
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But it hurts right now. When it doesn't seem to matter. If you're saying something people don't like, maybe... kindness stops mattering.
I don't like that.
[He turns over the idea in his head, trying to find his words.
Why does he want this.
]I think I want to see it for myself. Not through rumors. Can you get furious?
You'd do that for Lily, right?
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Once you stop saying or doing what people expect of you, many will abandon you. Not all, but many. It is the same as throwing the first punch, showing that you will defend yourself.
[ Ah, but this fighting thing... ]
I am not sure you could say or do anything that would make me that angry but I will fight you nonetheless.
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But if something happens, I wonder if you'll act. People are getting divided right now.
If you and I were enemies, would you win?
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Or is it you that you about, that you'll be swayed, hmm?
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Could you show me?
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Tell me here to meet you, Barrett dear.
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The training grounds. Tomorrow.
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