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[dissimulative]

:/
yuui
wtf is wrong with him

[fluorite]

He's stupid.

[dissimulative]

i wanna pummel him
how can he be so blind

[fluorite]

You and me both.

What am I going to do if we ever manage to get out? I'd already committed to following him wherever he needed to go to be happy.

[dissimulative]

well
you better not follow him to death
i wont allow that

[fluorite]

Don't worry. I won't be doing that, even if I feel lost.

[dissimulative]

good >:(
do you want to talk about it though
like
more

[fluorite]

I get the feeling you won't leave me alone regardless of what I say.

[ Which, of course, he says with affection. ]

So, we can.

You'll have to ask me things, though. My mind is all over the place.

[dissimulative]

thats right!!!
i definitely wont
how come he thinks that though
even though youre like
right there

[fluorite]

He was scared.

His fiancée left him because her family didn't approve of him. I think he still struggles with thinking someone will leave him alone again, so he can't accept it.

[dissimulative]

okay but
whether hes scared of being left alone or not
that doesnt invalidate your feelings about him
he cant just think "no one will care if i die"
and completely brush you off

[fluorite]

No, he can't.

Trust me, I'll have a good talk with him about this if we ever meet up in the afterlife.

[dissimulative]

i hope you write that down somewhere to remind yourself
i think you deserved a lot more
whether its more love from him
or whatever

[fluorite]

[ Maybe he shouldn't tell Oria this, but... he doesn't care. Why not? ]

I didn't exactly make it easy for him to love me. That came with a lot of hurt.

He had stronger feelings for me than I did for him.

You can think I deserved a lot more, but there was a lot we needed to work through.

[dissimulative]

he had stronger feelings than you
but he couldnt think of you when going off to die
i dont understand

[fluorite]

[ It doesn't make any sense, honestly, and so Fai finds himself staring at Oria's email for a long while. ]

Maybe he thought he wouldn't die, as dumb as that sounds.

[dissimulative]

-_-

[fluorite]

lol

So you agree? I bet that's exactly what happened.

He's such a meathead.

[ Said with fondness, despite everything. ]

[dissimulative]

even im not that careless
but yuui do you wanna like
hold a small vigil for him
i can make small candles...

[fluorite]

I appreciate the thought, but I don't know that I can handle one right now.

I hope you understand.

[ He can't release the dam of emotions he feels, not without being incapacitated when others might need him. ]

[dissimulative]

thats alright
you can ask me for anything yuui
im just a text away
so let me help you when you need me

[fluorite]

Thanks, Oria. I really mean it.

I'll do my best to reach out.

[ And they both know that his best is pretty bad. ]

[dissimulative]

you better be taking care of yourself too
so im gonna bring food over to your guild grunty every day

[fluorite]

Thanks, mom. I'll be sure to eat it~

[dissimulative]

:D