Not weird, necessarily. It's just that her faith in Lily is probably larger than I thought it was. She's still being respectful of others' opinions, and understands that everyone has their reasons, so it was hard for me to try to convince her that Lily wasn't good for anyone.
It's even harder for her since she doesn't have anywhere to return to, once this is all over.
I don't want Lily to take advantage of her kindness...I don't want something horrible happening to her.
I will. I told her that I'd try to understand her, even if I can't support Lily. I told her we can still be friends. I'm not going to abandon her, no matter what path she chooses. Even if she ends up seeing me as an enemy down the line, I don't think I could do the same.
And yeah, I know that. That's why this is happening, and why people are beginning to lose themselves. Look at what happened with Macha. I've only seen him around prior to his transformation, but I know he wasn't like this before.
I don't think we can convince everyone here that Lily doesn't mean well, but it still seems like a good amount of us are aware of what he's trying to accomplish.
check to see if she thinks she has another name, or what she thinks her real name must be.
And what her purpose here is. What does Lily want her to do? It's worrying. She was fine at the meeting, unlike the others...it happened so quickly with her.
...Okay. I'll remember that. I'll ask her for her true name, if I notice things are becoming stranger.
I'm not sure if Lily has plans for her, but I would not be surprised if he did. Uta is so generous, and I think Lily sees that. Whether or not he means to, he's fully capable of taking advantage of it, and I fear that he already has.
I don't think he cares. Mithrun hated Lily, but he's now Macha. Barrett named Lily after his sister, and he's lost himself too. As long as you came into contact with him, even briefly...
I hope I'm wrong. I don't want Uta to lose herself to a program.
mithrun was still trying to fight things when i last spoke to him. i gave him a copy of a story we made together. and made some origami animals.
i hope that was enough to keep him anchored.
is there anything you could give her? or other people that know her? just to remind her, that her friends will still be here for her. they wont forget.
That's really nice of you, and a very good idea. I'll try to think of something that I can give to her, actually.
I don't know who else is on good terms with her, so I'll just rely on myself for this task in particular. And if she's already gotten another name, that won't be enough to deter me from fighting for her.
We're Phantom Operatives, right? We have to continue to have hope.
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I talked to Uta.
I'm worried about her.
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It's even harder for her since she doesn't have anywhere to return to, once this is all over.
I don't want Lily to take advantage of her kindness...I don't want something horrible happening to her.
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This is how it started with the others. They were taken advantage of...
You know, Lily doesn't want us to leave, right?
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And yeah, I know that. That's why this is happening, and why people are beginning to lose themselves. Look at what happened with Macha. I've only seen him around prior to his transformation, but I know he wasn't like this before.
I don't think we can convince everyone here that Lily doesn't mean well, but it still seems like a good amount of us are aware of what he's trying to accomplish.
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If she starts to get stranger,
check to see if she thinks she has another name, or what she thinks her real name must be.
And what her purpose here is. What does Lily want her to do? It's worrying. She was fine at the meeting, unlike the others...it happened so quickly with her.
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I'm not sure if Lily has plans for her, but I would not be surprised if he did. Uta is so generous, and I think Lily sees that. Whether or not he means to, he's fully capable of taking advantage of it, and I fear that he already has.
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I hope I'm wrong. I don't want Uta to lose herself to a program.
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With the news about the fire and all, she has nowhere to go outside of here. For her, this life is probably the only one she has.
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then
she wont want us to leave Fragment either. If she feels that isolated...
And we still don't know the truth.
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My heart hurts for her, Emil. I don't know what can be done to help her.
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i hope that was enough to keep him anchored.
is there anything you could give her? or other people that know her? just to remind her, that her friends will still be here for her. they wont forget.
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I don't know who else is on good terms with her, so I'll just rely on myself for this task in particular. And if she's already gotten another name, that won't be enough to deter me from fighting for her.
We're Phantom Operatives, right? We have to continue to have hope.
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But you're right. We'll keep helping who we can until the end.
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Thank you, Emil. I appreciate your time and advice. :)
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