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[gluttoning]

It's the same...

I wonder if it's happening with anyone else. Maybe we should keep a really close eye on each other.

[insinning]

we have been

but you need to think about why lily is doing this.

[gluttoning]

I don't know.

I didn't know he could change people's memories until Fandaniel told me. And I don't know whether I believe him.




I'm gonna find out. Even if I have to beg.

/2, dated very late on 10/20

[gluttoning]

[He goes silent for a couple days, only to pop up, of all times, when Mithrun is missing.]

They're both broken.

We're all broken.



That's his answer.

[insinning]

no

none of us are broken

not as long as we have something to reach for

[gluttoning]

And what if we don't?

[insinning]

then we find something. anything. we're only broken if we lay down and give ourselves up to him entirely

[gluttoning]

Some of us don't have that option anymore.

Believing in lies will just hurt us. And sometimes finding something isn't enough.

Is it really that bad to want to be happy?

[insinning]

what lies are you talking about? lily's?

i don't believe in being happy at the expense of other people

[gluttoning]

No. I mean in finding something. Lies we tell ourselves.

Like I said, some of us don't have a choice. Some of us destroy what we want to hold onto anyway.

If we won't be any different no matter where we are, at least we can want to be somewhere where the pain will go away someday. If you don't feel the same... You don't know how jealous I am of you.

[insinning]

[ ... ]

jealous?

you really have no clue

how hard it's been

or how hard it is to see everyone forget how far they've come

because they talked to a voice who told them to let go

[gluttoning]

It doesn't matter. At least you still have something to look forward to. Some of us have a different job to do now.

Are you angry at us?

[insinning]

yes

this is wrong

all of this is wrong.

[gluttoning]

[Good. Finally, he can do what he needs to do.]

Why?

[insinning]

because this isn't you

this isn't mithrun

i want everyone to remember who they are

if lily really was right, then he shouldn't have touched anyone's memories

not a single one

[gluttoning]

Don't know what a mithrun is. Sorry.

If the memories we had were taking up space, maybe it's better that they're gone. He did us a favor. We have more room to do what we need to this way.

[insinning]

and what is it you need to do? what was so important you both had to lose who you are

[gluttoning]

To learn from you.

Why you're angry. Why you hate.

I lost the only other things I thought I wanted. And it's my fault.

But I'm learning a lot from someone like you.

[insinning]

[ so this is it . is this the fate for everyone in touch with Lily? This is the worst possible thing]

if that's true

then there's nothing for me to say to you anymore.


[He'll just end the conversation now]

[gluttoning]

[Hm. Unfulfilling in the end, but he got some good data.

That will have to be enough.]