[ The next time Matoba logs back in, he'll get a guild notification that he has items waiting to be picked up. If he ever goes to Telophoroi and interact with the cultist grunty, it will hand him twenty of these small cat plushes, a pile left at Matoba's feet. He's welcome to decorate his personal room with them.
There's an attached message to one of them, which reads: ]
I'm really sorry. Can we talk?
[ Wow. Correct punctuation and everything.
This isn't really an email, but Matoba is free to send him one if he wants to. ]
[Matoba stares at the pile of kitties at his feet and slowly bends down to collect them into his inventory before he even reads the message, which makes him pause up in collecting the last one.]
[Ah. So it was like that. He has to laugh to himself a little, because it's a little naive.]
[.... But, despite once again having better instincts otherwise, Oria gets an email pinging him back.]
Shall we keep it to text this time? Unless they have enabled the ability to do damage by card.
Hey, Koto. Don't say things like that! Who knows what the developers might put in next time... Then even emails won't be safe. Anyway. I'm really sorry about what happened and what I did to you. You can add that to your revenge tally roster or whatever you call it. I really deserved it.
[ Oh, he's being given a chance to explain himself? That's generous, he thinks. ]
I went to a dungeon and I came out with it feeling really strange. It was as if I wanted to pick fights with anyone who was a threat to me and my family and get rid of the them, despite how there wasn't any basis on them being capable of hurting my family. I heard that falling in love was something that happened before after a dungeon, so I think I got something similar to that.
More thought manipulation, huh? No, more like "reprogramming".
[Analytical, detached, logical. Matoba comes at this not with whatever dark mood might be stirring in him from Oria's betrayal, but with the plain facts presented to him.]
[Yes. The facts were that he acted under the influence of a mental reprogramming, much like the one that Mithrun had told him about. He must have told Oriade, too.]
I have also been told about that. It seems clear that this game is capable of not only reading, but rewriting our memories. There's not a lot you need to ask about why anyone would want to do that, is there?
[More and more, this "game" seems like a tool that defies control.]
No? That's that. And this is this. They're separate things. I'm sure I'll find out whether I like it or not... That's just how it seems to go with you, Koto.
Can I take that as a "aww he cares about me" sort of way? Jokes aside, thanks for hearing me out regardless. I'm not usually expected to explain what happened.
[To try not to involve civilians, if he doesn't have to. To keep his shit in his own territory. To take care of family matters within the family.]
Don't think I will let this go, though. Even if there are outside causes, taking the consequences of your actions is still your responsibility. I will be seeing you.
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There's an attached message to one of them, which reads: ][ Wow. Correct punctuation and everything.
This isn't really an email, but Matoba is free to send him one if he wants to. ]
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[Matoba stares at the pile of kitties at his feet and slowly bends down to collect them into his inventory before he even reads the message, which makes him pause up in collecting the last one.]
[Ah. So it was like that. He has to laugh to himself a little, because it's a little naive.]
[.... But, despite once again having better instincts otherwise, Oria gets an email pinging him back.]
Shall we keep it to text this time? Unless they have enabled the ability to do damage by card.
[Don't get any ideas, devs.]
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Hey, Koto.
Don't say things like that!
Who knows what the developers might put in next time...
Then even emails won't be safe.
Anyway.
I'm really sorry about what happened and what I did to you.
You can add that to your revenge tally roster or whatever you call it.
I really deserved it.
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That is the purpose of beta testing, after all.
[You're gonna shoot him anyway!! ...]
In any case, given that you are sending me an apology this time, does that mean you have an explanation lined up? Let's hear it then.
[And then he can decide what he wants to do about this.]
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I went to a dungeon and I came out with it feeling really strange.
It was as if I wanted to pick fights with anyone who was a threat to me and my family and get rid of the them, despite how there wasn't any basis on them being capable of hurting my family.
I heard that falling in love was something that happened before after a dungeon, so I think I got something similar to that.
[ Yeah, just murder on the mind. ]
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No, more like "reprogramming".
[Analytical, detached, logical. Matoba comes at this not with whatever dark mood might be stirring in him from Oria's betrayal, but with the plain facts presented to him.]
[Yes. The facts were that he acted under the influence of a mental reprogramming, much like the one that Mithrun had told him about. He must have told Oriade, too.]
I have also been told about that. It seems clear that this game is capable of not only reading, but rewriting our memories.
There's not a lot you need to ask about why anyone would want to do that, is there?
[More and more, this "game" seems like a tool that defies control.]
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Aren't you worried about getting hit with a weird curse after a dungeon clear?
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[Normally he just says: I'm just here to play.]
[But it's getting a little absurd to keep ignoring all of these red flags, when he clearly isn't the type to remain blissfully unaware, right?]
[So,]
Because I'm looking for something.
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Though I feel like that's not it.
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I heard that I would find something interesting if I joined this beta, so I did.
I can't say that information has been wrong so far.
[But as for just what he's looking for? Sorry, Oria. That's going to stay zipped.]
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Love?
Hookups?
Interesting people?
"Interesting" is really vague, Koto...
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Of course, if it ends up being in my interests to do so, you'll surely find out.
You're not going to act as though you're entitled to it to after you've messaged me to apologize, are you?
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That's that.
And this is this.
They're separate things.
I'm sure I'll find out whether I like it or not...
That's just how it seems to go with you, Koto.
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Although if I were to give you one bit of honesty, if you were to find out, it probably wouldn't be up to me, either.
Apologies in advance, I suppose. I don't like when others get roped into my affairs, either.
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Jokes aside, thanks for hearing me out regardless.
I'm not usually expected to explain what happened.
[ If you fail, then you fail. That's that. ]
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[To try not to involve civilians, if he doesn't have to. To keep his shit in his own territory. To take care of family matters within the family.]
Don't think I will let this go, though. Even if there are outside causes, taking the consequences of your actions is still your responsibility. I will be seeing you.
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See you around, Koto!
:D