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[gluttoning]

?

Yes?

[tinged]

[ … ]

Do you want me to hate you?

[gluttoning]

No?

Maybe.

I don't know.

My heart says no. You're my friend.

But I think your anger is different.

[tinged]

Oh. The monster. Yes, I think so.

But it doesn’t hold on to anger the way you may want it to. It can’t hate other than in brief bursts.

[gluttoning]

Why do you call it a monster?

[tinged]

That’s what it is inside me. That’s the word that came to mind first.

[gluttoning]

[A pause.]

Does it ever feel like it's eating you alive?

[tinged]

Not me. It wants to eat you. Everyone in my heart.

[gluttoning]

Do you want that to happen?

[tinged]

Sometimes, I want to let it. And...



I think I would let it rather than let you all be taken from me by anyone.

[gluttoning]

We can't promise forever.

What do you think you would do if one of us was taken?

[What extremes would they take? What vengeance would they seek?]

[tinged]

Oh, Bear... What wouldn't I do? wwww

[gluttoning]

Tell me.

I want to know.

[tinged]

You will know when it happens. So don’t run until then.

[gluttoning]

Your family and roommate won't be happy if I don't stay away.

[tinged]

Your family wasn’t happy when I didn’t stay away either.

[gluttoning]

What?

Booker was fine with it. What are you talking about?

[tinged]

The blue cookie. Lucas.

[gluttoning]

I don't know who that is. That isn't my family.

[tinged]

Lucas. Matt, Levi, Damian, Aiden, Booker. Lilith - Lily.

Blue, yellow, orange, dark purple, pink, black. Chocolate.

Remember these names because I might not. Come back to this message everyday and whisper them like a promise to yourself. To her.

If you can’t keep any other promise, keep this one.

[gluttoning]

[...

This is...



It takes him a moment to realize the cookie list. From a picnic too long ago. Hani... had asked something.

Why was it all nonsense?]

Leviathan gave me those too. Those names.

How do you know them?

[tinged]

Promise.

[gluttoning]

[A long, long pause.]

Okay.

I promise.




Will you tell me what's bothering you, if I stay?

Will you tell me what you want to do? I want to hear it.

[tinged]

If I have the words.

But do you have room to hear them with all the secrets you keep inside you?

[gluttoning]

I don't want to keep secrets. I don't like doing that.

But I want to keep people safe more.