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Message(s) Received;

@ Punisher - "Saw your post.I will drop by, ..."
@ Faunus - "yaoi dungeon. quest thing. you..."
@ Mr_Misteaks - "Mine was Lilith. She would hav..."
@ Anonymous - "Congratulations. You have unlo..."
@ Yael - "Δ Hidden Forbidden Bulwark. Me..."
@ KaraBear - "Hi Hector!I have a question fo..."
@ Mr_Misteaks - "Do you watch much TV?"
@ hana - "(555)123-4567 -Hana"
@ KaraBear - "Hey. Are you around right now?..."
@ zelkova - "Hello, Hector! :-)I'd like you..."
@ Mr_Misteaks - "HectorI fucked upSomeone's rea..."
@ mithrun1 - "How are you feeling?"
@ FlameMane - "hector i need a healer in lumi..."
@ oriade - "how do you feel about zelkova ..."
@ bigkitty - "He's alive."
@ Vogel - "Hi Hector,Do you happen to hav..."
@ Faunus - "Hey, Hector.I was wondering if..."
@ Owen - "i'm sorry.i was just surprised..."

Comments

un: Punisher

[regressive]

Saw your post.
I will drop by, but inviting everyone...
That's a bold move.

[secondthoughts]

[ Ooh, a PM about his post? From yaoi guy? Interesting. ]

Everyone keeps saying that, but I honestly don't see the problem.

[ Genuinely. What's a party without a little chaos? ]

[regressive]

[ Listen... he had his reasons to slide into the Experienced Man's PMs (avoiding Owen). ]

Well, if anything you'll stress test the game for the creators.
Maybe we won't experience lag.

[ Well, considering that alcohol there will be alcohol... ]

[secondthoughts]

[ Why are u avoiding Owen bb? ]

Exactly! It'll be good for the game lol

And really, I wouldn't worry. Not like anyone can actually harm you.

[regressive]

[ He's annoying :( ]

People are stupid when they're drunk, though.

[ So, in a way, they can cause harm in form of the mental damage. ]

[secondthoughts]

[ :( ]

But they can also be pretty funny, so you win some, you lose some. Just have to hope the people here are funny drunks lol

[message] un: Mr_Misteaks

[gluttoning]

[sent during their conversation at the birthday party]

Mine was Lilith. She would have been 15 this year.

Sorry for your loss. Thanks for talking about her.

[regressive]

I can just throw people who are sad drunks out.

[ One word and he's going to do it in a gesture of some yaoi solidarity. ]

[secondthoughts]

[ bro... a bodyguard? :flushed: ]

You know what? I'll leave that at your discretion. You seem like a dependable guy anyway. It's supposed to be chill, but we don't want people ruining things for others, yknow?

[ solidarity accepted— ]

[secondthoughts]

[ Hector sees this much later, after the party's mostly over. ]

You too? That's so young. I'm so sorry, man.

They didn't deserve this.

[gluttoning]

They didn't. Sometimes it's hard to think about. I don't like that memories are all that's left.

Were you two close? It sounded like your sister wasn't much older than you.

[secondthoughts]

[ If that doesn't hit close to home. ]

She was my role model. I really looked up to her. She always seemed like she had her shit together and I never did. Thought if I could match her standards, my parents would be half of proud of me as they were her.

I was already in college when she went missing, but it felt like I never actually grew up because of it. Never got to see her show me what adulthood is, if that makes any sense.

[ He's just full on drunk rambling now. It hurts more, especially around his birthday. ]

[gluttoning]

[Oh man. To go missing.... had this guy never gotten any kind of closure? Barrett's no doctor but he could guess why this might still tear up a guy inside.]

Did anyone ever get any leads on what happened to her? Anything at all?

[secondthoughts]

Nothing. At all. They searched for a whole year before they decided to close the case.

[gluttoning]

[So she still could be out there somewhere. Or she could be dead. Barrett can't imagine how he's still feel if the same had happened to any of his other family members, let alone his sister...]

I'm so sorry.

I know you said it's been a while. But I still can't really guess to how much it hurts to think about.

Do you have anyone you can talk to about it?

[secondthoughts]

My family, of course. And a good friend back home.

That's all I really need though. Sorry for springing all this on you.

Can't be easy, knowing about your own sister. She's so much younger than you. I can't imagine how much that hurt.

[gluttoning]

It's okay. I wouldn't have asked if I wasn't willing to listen.

[There's a pause on the chat, as though he's typing, erasing, and retyping several times.]

Not all that younger. Four years. But it happened a while ago. We got a funeral.

I don't really know how I would feel if I couldn't have said goodbye, though.

[regressive]

If you invited all of the game, someone will definitely ruin it.
This playerbase is special.
I'll take care of everything.

[ He's excited for a party for the first time in a while... what does that say about him? Maybe let's not dwell on that. ]

[secondthoughts]

Appreciate it, Punisher!

See you there :-)

[ If someone wants to play security, he's not going to argue! He doesn't think it's going to be much of a problem, but. ]

[secondthoughts]

Closure, being able to say goodbye - I guess that's all you can really ask for in a situation like that.

[ It'd be a lie if Hector said he wasn't at least a little bit jealous. He can't even remember the last conversation he had with his own sister. ]

What happened to her?

Do I need to cw for child death.... cw for child death i guess

[gluttoning]

[Another long pause.]

Accident.

Got in the way of a car rolling out of a driveway. She was too little.

Dad said she died before the ambulance made it to the hospital.

[secondthoughts]

Fuck, man. That must have hurt loads.

[ A life cut short like that? It fills him with an irritation he can't describe. ]

I'm so sorry, Misteaks. I know it's been a long time, but I send my well wishes and condolences to your family.

[gluttoning]

Thanks.

I don't think any of us were the same after that. Life keeps happening, just without her. She won't come back. Thinking about that doesn't do any good.

I try to remember the things I loved. But it's hard. We still all miss Lily a lot.

[Like a hole that can't be filled.]

All that to say, though, is that I understand. I hope.

[secondthoughts]

No, I get it.

I think there's a special kind of pain only those left behind have. Thanks for opening up about her to me, I'm practically a stranger. but if you ever need anything, I'll do everything I can to help.

[gluttoning]

The same goes for you. I know I'm still young, but I think having someone to talk to is important when something hurts.

I'm sorry you had to spend part of your birthday thinking about that. But I hope it could turn into good thoughts by the end.