He stubbornly started to turn away from the past, because he thought that ignoring it meant he'd grow stronger. But, he thinks the most awful truth of it all is that he hasn't (couldn't) let go.
So, doesn't that mean he's just been pretending all along? But, he doesn't say any of those things, not when he can't figure the answer out to that either. Not when he's certain that will lead him down a rabbithole of no return. ]
I wouldn't think I would forget. But, maybe the truth isn't that I wouldn't ever forget...it could be I wouldn't accept it, even if I did.
Ironically, I never liked confrontation much originally, or fighting. If I could run away, I would prefer that to be my course of action. But, Ilus, one of my brothers, always looked out for me, even when things became difficult. Even in his last moments, he tried to his best to protect me.
If I had been stronger, if I could protect him...sometimes I've had that thought so many times. At least once, to return the favor.
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He stubbornly started to turn away from the past, because he thought that ignoring it meant he'd grow stronger. But, he thinks the most awful truth of it all is that he hasn't (couldn't) let go.
So, doesn't that mean he's just been pretending all along? But, he doesn't say any of those things, not when he can't figure the answer out to that either. Not when he's certain that will lead him down a rabbithole of no return. ]
I wouldn't think I would forget. But, maybe the truth isn't that I wouldn't ever forget...it could be I wouldn't accept it, even if I did.
Ironically, I never liked confrontation much originally, or fighting. If I could run away, I would prefer that to be my course of action. But, Ilus, one of my brothers, always looked out for me, even when things became difficult. Even in his last moments, he tried to his best to protect me.
If I had been stronger, if I could protect him...sometimes I've had that thought so many times. At least once, to return the favor.